Foids Posting L's

The point is, due to that and being able to hang out with them (at work, at school, wherever they were) all day every day, he was very very close to this friend group and every single person in it. When he died, they helped me with a lot of things, especially arranging his memorial. Time passed, people moved on and to different cities, and then Covid struck. I began to notice that the friends would hang out with each other, and never invite me. I'd still get invited IF there was going to be a group gathering, but no one ever tried to hang out with me one on one, or invited me along if a few hanged out unless the entire group was expected to be present.

"You know what, you're actually very nice! People (meaning other members of the group) are like "oh no it's [me], wonder what drama she's stirring today", but you're not really like that at all".

And I'm just... broken hearted. Like my heart is shattered. I never burden them. Never. I keep my life SECRET to not be a burden, I learned very early on in my life that no one cares about what you go through, they just want you to make them feel good about themselves. I'm neurodivergent, it's a lesson I seem to have to keep learning and learning and learning the hard way, because when I HAD to inform them of stuff that affected them too, I somehow got classified as "drama stirring".