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Megachurches raise ambivalent reactions in society. For some, they are a source of faith, hope, and inspiration. I look to folks like Joel Osteen and am impressed at the leadership qualities they possess to command a crowd that large and to do it consistently for years. Regardless of your views on religion, it is undeniable that individuals like Joyce Meyer are cut from a different cloth. They have qualities and abilities that have helped to make them insanely successful.
However, these megachurches are inevitably the source of controversy. Many despise the prosperity gospel promoted by these groups. Others claim that this isn't in the spirit of true Christianity, which does have some Biblical basis.
And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him
Over the years numerous megachurch pastors have found themselves falling from grace and losing everything they have built. Ted Haggard is a great example, and there are several documentaries you can watch on his tragic downfall. Joel Osteen has faced his troubles, but has managed to come out the other end still highly successful.
Right now, we may be watching a new controversy unfold, this time from Pastor TD Jakes. Who is he, what did he do, and what can we expect of him and his congregation? That's what I hope to explore next.
Who is TD Jakes?
Thomas Dexter Jakes comes from extremely humble beginnings. His parents were entrepreneurs, and while he wasn't poor, he certainly wasn't wealthy either.
At the age of eight Jakes began selling vegetables from his mother's garden. While in high school he cut grass, delivered newspapers, and sold Avon and Amway products.
When his father died, he was struck by grief and he left high school to pursue life as a preacher. He was so poor, he was afraid to get on his knees and pray because his shoes had holes in them. However, it is within religion that he found his calling. So what are his main beliefs?
He believes in Pentecostalism
He believes in sexual abstinence before marriage
He believes in the Trinity
He believes that God will bless those who believe in him, not just in spirit but financially as well
Perhaps most importantly, he does not believe in homosexuality. Although he said his views are "evolving" he is pretty clear that he does not support it.
So, he is clear that he stands against bussy.
Diddy do it?
We'll have to take a detour right here to briefly discuss Puff Daddy/P. Diddy/Sean Combs. Like TD Jakes, Diddy comes from humble beginnings, but his hunger for success is pretty obvious from his early years. He always wanted to be wealthy and goddammit he did everything in his power to reach the heights he has. He is inarguably one of the most influential figures in hip-hop and Western music as a whole in the last few decades.
In the 80s and 90s, Hip hop was a violent, dangerous business and one had to be mentally and physically tough to succeed. It is for this reason that you'll notice a MASSIVE difference in the nature of modern hip hop artists and those of the "golden era". My favorite example of this is Method Man. Watch his interviews, and you see that genuinely BIPOC style of "cool but dangerous" that pretty much no other race can pull off. Like this interview where he clowns an interviewer. The way he just dominates the interview while still being cool and funny is pure BIPOC swag at its best.
The fact of the matter is NONE of you would be able to handle this situation with this much finesse. There's also this interview where he threatens Wendy Williams (honestly a lolcow who deserves her own post if not her own hole entirely) about what she(?) said about his wife.
But back to Diddy. He is currently the latest to receive a #metoo allegation. They have come from a few sources, with some claiming that he has a history of sexually assaulting women. For the most part, Diddy has been silent on the matter, though he has made a statement defending himself.
Enough is enough! For the last couple of weeks, I have sat silently and watched people try to assassinate my character, destroy my reputation and my legacy. Sickening allegations have been made against me by individuals looking for a quick payday. Let me be absolutely clear: I did not do any of the awful things being alleged. I will fight for my name, my family and for the truth
Like Epstein, Diddy threw a lot of parties, which means that others have been dragged into his allegations.
TD Jakes = Takes Peepee Jakes
So with Diddy allegations flying around, TD Jakes also receives allegations. It has been said that he attended plenty of Diddy's parties. This isn't something his camp denies.
"As a filmmaker, executive producer and one of the pioneers of value-based movies, Bishop Jakes, in his role as CEO of T.D. Jakes Entertainment, paid respect to the former Chairman of Revolt during the celebration of his birthday," Williams said.
"Bishop Jakes was in LA for important business meetings, and we felt that a quick appearance at the former Chairman of Revolt's birthday event was the respectful thing to do since Bishop Jakes' sermons are aired on the Revolt Network," he explained.
The latest allegations against Diddy concern Cassie who has filed lawsuits against the producer.
In a lawsuit that was filed last month, Cassie alleged that she was abused and sexually assaulted while with Diddy, and that the artist and mogul r*ped her in 2018 when she tried to break up with him. The lawsuit was settled less that 24 hours after it went public, although Diddy denied Cassie's accusations. He's also been handed three additional lawsuits, including one from a woman who says she was 17 when she was r*ped by Diddy and two other men in 2003.
It is now also alleged that Cassie has handed a phone to the feds which has evidence that TD Jakes attended Diddy's parties and he was out for bussy! He slept with male escorts is the claim. He's also getting Michael Jacksoned and is being accused of taking advantage of a young boy whose parents were given hush money.
https://x.com/yungforeverrr/status/1737630728177774723
This has already affected TD Jakes and his brand. The pastor's camp has denied the claims:
"[It's] disheartening to witness the proliferation of numerous deepfake photos and the distortion of words through false, sensationalized misrepresentations, encapsulating purported statements to falsely speculate and attack others, including Bishop Jakes."
https://www.hotnewhiphop.com/747740-t-d-jakes-diddy-rumours-bishop-statement
What to believe?
Well, we have no definitive proof of TD Jakes liking bussy cakes, but it doesn't look good for him. My main source of suspicion comes from the claims of "deepfakes" when there are no photos out yet, which suggests that they know some photos might surface.
He wouldn't be the first pederast pastor, but we should be careful when evaluating wild claims about people. If he's gay, I accept him fully and sympathize with his struggle. If not, I sympathize with him dealing with public attacks that aren't true.
Conclusion
Honestly, the whole thing gives me hope. Both TD Jakes and Diddy came from nothing and managed to amass so much for themselves. And unlike these men, I don't have extreme degeneracies that can destroy me - except for being a druggie, but I'm still functional it's not like I'm snorting coke or shooting heroin. I can still say no to getting high (I always choose yes).
I feel like if I try like a maniac for ONE year and not give a frick about rejection, I can find a gf. Not just a vagina, but a woman I like. I just need to try. I haven't been trying, just getting sad I got no Tinder matches and not talking to women IRL. Honestly, I feel like this is a problem 90% of incels fall into. You come online, end up talking to e-girls, and your lizard brain thinks you're making progress because "of course this terminally online female is going to fly to my country and frick me eventually if I'm nice to her". Stop talking to e-girls (COMPLETELY) and start talking to women IRL.
When I say this, I don't mean to avoid all women online. I've met many genuinely based human beings who just happen to be female on the internet. Folks like:
Genuinely some of my favorite people in my life ever. But there are also e-girls you're fricking orbiting and it's wasting your time and mental energy. Cut it out, stop giving them your attention. Like I said, it's preventing your brain from realizing you're not making any real progress toward actual normal pair-bonding with a real woman you can see, touch, and love.
It's time to go places I don't usually go (festivals, nightclubs, maybe even Mormon church) and just TRY talking to real flesh and blood women, even if I have to do it alone and it's guaranteed I'm going to get fricked off at least 70% of the time. I'm definitely not going to be like those dudes you see making videos of themselves hitting on every girl on the street, but I am going to try to see if I can talk to women in appropriate social settings and leave if I sense they're getting creeped out or annoyed.
From TD Jakes and Diddy, I also learned that balance is important in everything. If you want good, sometimes you have to do bad. Yin and Yang. I'm not perfect, but I do try to treat women with respect IRL. I'm certainly not going to stop this, but I will be dipping into the dark triad. Here's the thing - if you research dark triad, you'll learn that you don't even need to be a sicko to use it. They're not signs of evil, but behavior patterns that anyone can adopt
The dark triad is a psychological theory of personality, first published by Delroy L. Paulhus and Kevin M. Williams in 2002, that describes three notably offensive, but non-pathological personality types: Machiavellianism, sub-clinical narcissism, and sub-clinical psychopathy.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dark_triad
I'm mostly interested in Machiavellianism which involves pragmatism over principles. I've got strong principles concerning women IRL. Despite my shitposting here, I do believe women face unique problems in society and endure shit treatment from men who sexually objectify them. Hence, I absolutely don't want to be another man making my horniness their problem. This is good on one level, but it also leaves me feeling intense guilt and frustration about my normal sexual desires. Like it's something hideous I have to hide.
There's the principle, but the pragmatic part is that I don't want to die an incel. So what's the solution? This is the question I ask myself:
To a hardline Machiavellian, the plan of action is simple - i want to coom, I find the easiest route for s*x, there's no need to consider morals". I can't do that. There's a middle ground though - I'm human and horny, surely there are other horny human females. Can we not find shared desires? That's what I mean when I say dipping into the dark triad. Taking the best qualities of the worst values. To be clear, I don't just want s*x - I desire a gf, and eventually a wife and nuclear family. But s*x is definitely part of it.
I have a few big obstacles to overcome
getting full braces on Jan 15 at age 28
no experience talking to women romantically
156cm ugly manlet
rekt legs from self-harm
thinking of getting an eyebrow piercing soon so probably going to have a swollen eye area for a while
But these aren't impossible odds, especially if I let go of the "must be 9/10 white blonde girl" mindset Holly got me stuck in. Classic incel mistake. Almost nobody on Earth has access to literally the most highly desired type of female. Unless you're rich, abnormally handsome, or a male feminist, you're not fricking big tiddy blonde girls. Get over it.
TD Jakes and Diddy - I want like 10% of your success, and I'll use it 100% more wisely.
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