Feeling triggered by Trump facing no consequences :marseycope:

https://old.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/1ht374b/feeling_triggered_by_trump_facing_no_consequences/

It feels so deeply reminiscent of my abusers, never facing any consequences for how much they ruined my life. They destroyed parts of me permanently, and all I can do is hope to :cope: with them for the rest of my life. My CPTSD will never be cured, and the people who gave me this lifelong debilitating illness get away Scott free.

Watching Trump not only get his insurrection case dismissed, but win another presidency, AND now get away with no actual punishment for his 34 felony counts just makes me feel sick and hopeless. If a former President can commit such horrific crimes against our freedom and democracy and get another presidency and a slap on the wrist, how should we expect any abuser to ever be held accountable for what they've done? And all of the smug hatred and violence that's going to be spurred on by all of this… at least last time the only minority status I had was being half black and a woman. This time I'm enemy number one because I transitioned.

I just want to work my stupid job, eat sometimes and have a roof over my head. It's all I've ever fricking wanted to just have peace and feel okay in my body and in my life. I had my entire childhood stolen from me just to be on the receiving end of direct targeting by my government's incoming President, who won't be held accountable for ANY of the crimes he's committed.

It feels so so incredibly unfair and triggering. I don't know how else to explain it. I just feel completely and totally distraught and disoriented and terrified. I genuinely think that this was the downfall of the US. I don't think we're going to have another election in 4 years, the same way Putin stole the election in Russia and has used voter suppression and intimidation to become president again every election since.

I'm terrified that the best I ever got was already what I had.

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tempest me/me 28d ago #7592294

For me, as an adult, I'm going to do what I could not do as a child: CONTROL ACCESS. I am choosing to not participate or attend the approaching circus freak show. Nor will I be associated with/communicate with/do business with ANYONE or any company/organization who made the conscious decision to support him. No access to me, my resources, my time, my energy, my life. No contact. No excuses. None.

With this mindset, I've built a greenhouse out of my back deck. I've taken up dehydrating and canning food. I've started to learn how to make the most amazing pickles, slaw, kim chee, grow my own herbs, fruits, veggies and took up pottery and embroidery. I'm learning pickleball and tennis. Gotten back into hiking. I've gotten sloppy with my compound bow so I'll start practicing that again. I've also taken up target shooting and I'll enter my first turkey shoot this year. I've gotten a new library card and plan on reading a couple of series I've been putting off. I'm joining the Oddfellows and a UU church to socialize with other educated, compassionate, and empathetic people.

In short I'm going to absolutely indulge myself during the years of the new regime in ways that cannot be effected by the new regime while simultaneously limiting my contributions to the economy, or allowing the influence of the illegal policies or devoid followers of the incoming regime in my world. I'm controlling access to ME. Let me tell you, the feeling of liberation that comes with controlling access is absolutely empowering!!!!

hey /u/cricketintime you realize you could have done all this stuff years ago and also regardless of who won the presidency, right? in fact if trump pushes you to all these self-improvement tasks then he's probably the best thing to ever happen to you lmao

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lankyhands aut/ism good morning tempest 28d ago #7592296

Nor will I be associated with/communicate with/do business with ANYONE or any company/organization who made the conscious decision to support him.

Posted on reddit lol

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weiKONGsa hello/KONG lankyhands 28d ago #7592860

"Husband and his friend are starting to process what they just voted for."

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AverageBen10Enjoyer ben/10 :marseyben10:

28d ago #7592385

Hahaha the C stands for complex? So these middle class depressed Redditors think they have a more extreme version of PTSD than soldiers who've seen the horrors of war?

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ikitomi they/them AverageBen10Enjoyer 28d ago #7592457

It's more of another poorly named mental disorder along the same lines as how schizoid and schizophrenia have very little to do with each other and specifically related to fricked up home environments but most of them are larping in that regard anyways.

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BWC WM/AF :!chadnordic:

AverageBen10Enjoyer 28d ago #7592671

Me reading reddit and seeing that Drumpflt won the election is literally just like being imprisioned and mutilated in Assad's Sednaya prison chud. :soysnootypefast: :soysnooseethe:

SnibetiSnab they/them AverageBen10Enjoyer 28d ago #7592622 Edited 28d ago

It's a term that's supposed to describe a person who has a mountain of small traumas that add up to have a comparable level of psychiatric harm to one major traumatic event. It's real, but most of the people who claim to have it are self-diagnosed. Even with genuine cases they are extremely difficult people to deal with because having a billion fricking different issues means there's a billion little things that can and will set them off.

tempest me/me 28d ago #7592283

We're all watching abuse dynamics play out on a national/global scale. Of course it's triggering. I threw up when I found out he won, or more accurately, my body threw up for me bc it knew what that meant.

darn this b-word has such a smart stomach

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LowAPM they/them draft our dramatards 28d ago #7592333

Same! My mental and emotional wellbeing is more important to me at this time. I used to be triggered all the time by the outlandish things he said and did without suffering any consequences; it made me physically ill, battling IBS, anxiety, and fibromyalgia. I am so done!

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