I'm done trying or hoping to find a gf

It never began and that's the long and short of it.

I am 5 foot 1 ugly poorcel with 0 social skills, completely introverted, and there's no amount of going to clubs, joining societies, or trying online dating that's going to change that. It's over. I will die with an unmet need and I have to come to terms with that. I got rejected by my fricking best friend, the one person who saw the best in me. If she finds me undateable then it's pretty much universal. I don't want to deal with rejection over and over again when I know what the outcome is going to be every time.

Frick, it's so sad. I didn't want things to go this way. I wanted the normie life with the wife and children but its NEVER going to happen. This is so depressing but I have to find the will to live regardless. Any others who have come to the realisation that nothing they try will work?