270 lbs (122 kg) lesbian foid is "terrified of intimacy"

Terrified of intimacy

I am a woman, about 270lbs. I just started dating a woman who is a real catch, shes beautiful, kind, funny, caring, and intelligent. She's quite petit, the opposite of me and though she seems to like me a lot, I am terrified of intimacy because of how much I hate my body. I hate the way I look with my clothes off and it's starting to hold me back in this relationship. Everytime we start kissing, I get scared when hands start to wander and break it off. She invited me round for dinner but I'm scared, actually terrified that it will turn into something! We've been on 4 dates and I'm aware this is when things start to get less-casual.

Does anyone experience this? I hate my stomach, my thighs, everything. I'm so so so scared about this but I like her so much and I don't want to throw this relationship away

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