You're not ugly, You're just fat.

You're not ugly, you're just fat This is actually a compliment i got once, the guy looked almost earnest about it, but it plays in my head all the time.

I havnt had a relationship in 10 years, nothing physical either, i kept telling myself it didnt matter and for the most part its true, i have started chatting to someone, on one hand im enjoying it, on the other, im just expecting to be screwed over, we havnt exchanged pics yet, just spoken on the phone, but im already dreading it, To get ghosted or the excuses, or if we meet in person, to see the disgust in his eyes, when he realises someone fat like me could be attracted to him, so i keep saying to myself your not ugly, just fat, and thats my idea of confidence, how do you guys n gals feel confidence when its so darn hard? Im in New Zealand and there are a lot of bigger people around but i still feel like the odd one out

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