I'm into psychotic b-words

Normies are throwing around memes like this.

I've always rejected normiehood so hard, but this meme just so exposes how I feel about normies. It's not "gay", but it's just so disgustingly bland that it might as well be.

My type of women is a hyper mess, stirs drama all over the place and has multiple personality disorders BPD, OCD ec cetera. The type of crazy women that makes you hate yourself and go through existential crises every few weeks. The type of women that makes your mom upset, and gets your dad to smile smugly and nostalgically talk about his wild hippie days.

I don't like women who have some bullshit political views. At best, they agree with my own, and then it's still like "meh". I especially despise "femcels" who have weird internet ideology about relationships which they picked up on social media. Those b-words have more baggage than a bedouin caravan.

I prefer raw, unkempt feminity. Derangement that comes directly from the soul. I had s*x with a woman like this. She basically ripped off my pants and nearly bit off my peepee. I went from being a beta to understanding somewhat how to be masculine. I wish it lasted longer honestly. Her two boyfriends (she juggled between them and hid them from each other) were both stereotypical loser simps, they lack the self awareness to realize you had to WRANGLE that ho down like a cowboy. One was an even bigger simp than the other, he came crawling back to her, even after he found out that he was being cucked multiple times and financially abused. The other got away and stayed away, and though I'll never see him again, at least he is more diginfied in my eye for that.

I want to date that kind of women, but her in particular, she was fricking too many guys and only wanted these "sort of kind of relationships". It's a hard find, but I really hope I can get that balance between insane foiddery and commitment.