[Serious] I think I missed my chance

I was 21 years old and joined this "le anguage exchange site" which was basically just a dating website in disguise. I'm relatively good lookng, just neurodivergent, so I got messaged by various girls. One in particular was 33 year old Japanese woman. We talked for quite a bit. Eventually started camming on Skype. The first thing she said when she saw me was "You are like a greek God, you could have any woman you wanted" She was pretty neurodivergent, a looker, not a model, but quite pretty in that grey mouse kind of way. She ran her own business, had a big apartment in central Tokyo and her parents were loaded. She flew to visit me and we tried to have s*x but she said I'm too big and it hurts. For record I'm not that big, but I don't think she was faking. She said she was virgin and thought she was lesbian most of her life but never dated. She complained how cold it was in my country and left earlier than expected. We continued online, bunch of weird stuff like "I want to marry you. don't like asian men, I want to have white kids. She suggested I move to Japan and have kid with her and get married and I can stay as a home husband. I ended up meeting a white woman some time later and kinda ghosted her. Anyways... that didn't last. So, couple more dog lovers later I'm single again. I don't have her contact anymore and I'm sure she found her white chad already. But I can't get missing out on that gaijin home husbando lifestyle out of my head. I recently joined tinder and set my location in Japan just for fun, and boy am I getting many matches and likes, but I'm afraid to propose this arrangement to anyone again, thinking it will seem weird. But if it happened once, why can't it happen again? Should I yolo this or will I be mocked? Was that a unicorn and my one chance in life?