I am a Spiderman CRUSADER If you closely follow 
!metashit happenings, you may remember that about 9 days ago sneedman's account was permanently banned 
"by request". But why?
I didn't want to post this before 
he came back because I really 
did think 
he killed 
himself, but now that he's back and I know he's alive 
and well I am comfortable sharing. He wrote a lengthy suicide 
note (or rather, a precursor teasing 
a future 
suicide 
note) before immediately deleting it, apparently having second 
thoughts, and then I guess 
he requested his account be banned for mental 
health reasons, or maybe out of shame.
Here is the post in full:
@sneedman I love you and I'm glad you changed your mind
This site wouldn't be (and wasn't) the same without you. Please 
stick 
around with us a little 
while longer 
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I really like sneedman. I assume he must be super awkward and neurodivergent IRL because even being a short neighbor he shouldn't be as cursed as he acts. He's self-aware but unable to translate that self-awareness into self-improvement, which is extremely relatable to me.
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Yeah he's a strag
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i love him. he can be a little
annoying 
at times, but who here isnt?
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Me.
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Wrong.
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Me
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That's just dramneurodivergent syndrome.
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My sneedman bio, based on extensive research
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Nah, didn't he wash out of PhD programmes twice?
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I lied about the extensive research. He seemed thoughtful but whiny from skimming a couple posts. No idea what his problem is in that case
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No idea about cause and effect but afaik his problems are:
His dad was seriously abusive
He's nursing a major benzo addiction
Various mental health things schizoid personality type
He's short
He's a cutter
He's scared to talk to girls but desperate for love
He's fixated on one girl who was medium nice to him
He chose to attempt a PhD in English literature
He's stuck in South Africa
He gets validation from garbage websites
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diagnosed the problem
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That doesn't hold
@kaamrev back. He's out there enjoymaxxing, feeling the wind in his hair and killing people with his car.
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Worse self-harm than the cutting
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The first
@sneedman post I remember reading was his writeup about going to some discotheque alone as a sort of exposure therapy. He even was anxious about the five minute car drive there, but he forced himself to do it anyway. I thought that was really admirable. 
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Still don't get why that nibba didn't walk instead of DWI but maybe SAfrica is like Burgerstan and travelling on foot means you're poor?
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I imagine you'd get robbed 5 times on the way if you tried that
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Fine, I take it back. You and jimie have convinced me
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he tried benzos
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When he went through his circumcision arc, I started thinking his whole shtick was a gay op. It's easy to think that because at least 2/3 of the people on this site are faking something or other at all times. But I guess it was all real? Or still not? I'm confused and now I don't care about this anymore.
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