EFFORTPOST Spiritual Coach, failed escort, former journ*list, the Final Boss of Foids appears

Amber, 27, Las Angeles CA

For context, her boyfriend volunteered her to come on the show

Career:

• "Webshow host and producer, my show is called 'Healing Amber'"

  • "getting that off the ground and running"

• Making comercials on social media

  • She's advertising payday loans for $200

• Trying to move away from "user generated content" because "It's been feeling too hypercapitalistic" timestamp

• "I'm balancing, trying to participate in a capitalistic society that I really resent because I wanna be able to change this country from the inside out -" timestamp

  • "I mean you can vote like everyone else"

    • [in a new accent I can't place] "No no nooooo that doesn't make a difference"

• Commerical gig work basic details timestamp

  • $300 - $1000 for one ad

  • Doing 3-5 a month

• "I'm trying to get my inner reality to finally reflect on the outside so there was a whole history of some seriously traumatic shit that went down in Las Angeles, and before hand, and I really froze up and stopped participating in life, you could say? And I let others support me and I've put in a little bit of energy here and there to support myself but luckily now that I've done all this inner work and I have been realigning my life - that UGC work, the commercial work, it didn't feel aligned, so I'm doing this easy job like let's say-"

  • "What's the easy job"

    • "like let's say I put in 30 minutes for an AG One Greens commercial where they're like 'Why's your skin so glowy? and I'm like AG One!' you know, that kind of thing. So cool I've just made 300 off of that but why do I not feel fufilled and why am I not taking my time to actually participate more so what I've found feels best right now is helping small businesses. So I'm taking the skills that I used in creating social media ads, you could say, and I'm turning it into my consulting and production company."

• "I wear my expensive clothes and I buy my dog the expensive food and I do all this shit that will make me like, make me feel better when really actually gaining some sovereignty and some independence will make me feel better in the heart and so now I'm also turning, I guess, I'm playing you say two side of the point, I'm doing the work that doesn't feel good to survive, bearly, because there's so much resistance there but now, I am actually just inthe middle of my first pitch deck to a client in order to consult them in social media authenticity"

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• Caleb realizes all of this was evasion about an actual income number

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  • She doesn't know because she avoids looking at her bank accounts

• Doesn't want to do other work

• Living situation timestamp

  • Molding, whole building management company is getting sued?

  • Hasn't had to pay rent?

  • "I've manifested a life at this point where I am taken care of so much by other people"

    • "Manifested a life?"

      • "Subconsciously."

        • "Okay."

          • "Subconsciously my inner aspects and inner children have felt safest when others are supporting us rather than we are supporting ourselves because then it means we're not alone."

            • "Do you see a therapist?"

              • "I see many therapists, coaches, I'm also a coach to a certain extent, so yeah what's annoying is I am hyper-aware"

                • "You're a coach? A spiritual coach?"

                  • "I'm a spiritual healer and holistic health coach"

  • "How do we feel comfortable by any means giving anyone advice on life if you're if you are just failing in the United States" timestamp

  • "What I coach people about is how to find joy and healing in the present moment"

  • "What I do away from my time participating in capitalism has been some intence butt inner work and I just teach that"

• Total income for last month

  • $2'891

  • Has EBT, food stamps

  • Was getting 281 a month, knocked down $100 since she made more this month

• "It's interesting because like you're choosing not to work though" timestamp

  • Transferred from a career tutoring little kids "making a lot of money doing that, like $100 a session but then for some reason more on camera stuff was calling me and I got into the acting the music videos the dancing, all of that LA bullshit"

  • "two summers ago I was grossly sexually harassed at a music video" timestamp

• "Will you hold my hand for a second I need connection" timestamp

• "A lot of [those costs] I think are for supplements that I think are gonna like save me" timestamp

  • Specifically names: Magnesium, Lyposomol and something else I can't make out

• "This is why I believe in Divine Timing, everything is a Divine Appointment, the timing of me being invited on your show could not have been better because the inner work is caught up and now we're ready for the external reality to reflect the internal" timestamp

• [About her dog] "We have a psychic connection and nervous systems are co-regulated so anything th-" timestamp

  • "Okay"

Financials:

• Navy Federal: $502 => $509 timestamp

  • $30 in fee so far this year

  • "That one's negative six dollars, I think, right now"

    • "No we're talking about the checking account, er we're talking about the credit card not the checking account"

      • "oh gross, okay, okay, okay okay"

  • She didn't make a payment on this, credit limit is $500

  • Why didn't you pay it? timestamp

    • "Yeah, okay, this is clearly a disociation issue."

  • "I love to claim responsibility for the way that my life is to a certain extent but systemtically the way that the world is set up to oppress certain groups of people, I feel fricking oppressed as shit"

    • "Why are you oppressed?"

      • "That being a woman in this world and someone who wants to go to court for shit somebody who wants to speak out about the abuses of power in this whole world. Banks are an abuse of power."

        • "Sure, but credit cards, we're talking about credit cards here"

  • "About a thousand dollars of those credit card bills was caused by hmm okay, it was my built but I trusted a man on seeking arangements .com who said that he would give me like 5'000 if we went on a date together"

    • they never went on the date

  • "So to be clear, you think the system is why you're in credit card debt?" timestamp

    • "Yean, I think the system is to blame for it, why a lot of people are in poverty"

  • "These were all a choice but" timestamp

    • Borderline schizobabble about free will because a "professor" at Stanford said there is no free will

    • "It's basically West World, dude" "They cancelled [West World] because West World knew what was up"

• Student Loans: 27'000 timestamp

  • On forbearance because of her income?

    • Actually she's not timestamp

  • Student Loan discussion really starts timestamp

  • interest rates between 3% and 5%

  • She thinks it's around $27'000

  • Went to Syracuse University for Sports Journ*lism

    • "Do you like sports?"

      • "Ummm honestly, no! I got into sports because my dad likes sports"

    • Worked for Fox Sports after college but was making $18 an hour

    • I'll call them today

      • Ummm actually I'll call them tomorrow because I was going to do some 'plant medicine' to get my mind right after talking to you

        • "Does that just mean smoke weed?"

          • "The other 'plant medicine'"

• Babble about how her childhood was chaotic and 'scary discomfort' timestamp

• "Everytime I'm feeling lonely scared or anxious I'll go online and post a story telling my story hoping that it helps somebody else I try to get my partner to take care of me, in the past it was random sugar daddies" timestamp

Card 2: $3984 timestamp

• 2000 above the credit limit

• Lots of fees

• $158 Kap Mentorship timestamp

  • Spirital Healing training

  • Her expenses are fricking insane

  • Big into raki?

• "Actually everywhere in the United STates has a mold issue, and that's something I'm trying to raise awareness of so I can help my own situation" timestamp

• "How are you getting home?" timestamp

  • She is flying from Austin to DC to meet with her "business consultant" to take care of her taxes and budget?

• Weird twitching timestamp

• Took 4 dollars out of her Roth IRA, doesn't know why

• "I had a man buy my motorcycle and eventually I owe him but there's no deadline on that" timestamp

  • 3300 and she's made two payments "of 10 percent"

  • No contract

• Caleb tries to watch her podcast timestamp

  • Oh my God