EFFORTPOST How long does it take to escape inceldom?

Why not write this later after the jump

Becuase I might go to another nightclub that Friday. In 2024, I will get a girlfriend. Too high to get more hollys. enjoy yjrdr

Piercing

Can't stop thinking about it. It's a sign Yeah, I'm getting a facial piericng. Maybe my first won't be in a noticeable but we're eventually doing the face. My old Benzos made me calm and talkative. These just zone the frick out of. I feel like a shameless zombie.

If I knew even one girl IRL I'd be hitting her up. I think I'll ask my Loctitian (male) to a bar next week. I've got so many ideas like making massive straws that rich Westermers can enter in Africa sterilized straw and thirsty Africans can just get quenched like help folks reach their destination

Th aimbian in is the fridge. Don't take it, you've had enough. Therapeutic doses are nice! I just get enjoy alternative states of mind where you arn't being Seft-loathing and anxious 247.

Preparations

As I previously mentioned, my skydiving was delayed to this Friday because of the weather. In the lead-up to skydiving, it has occurred to me that I'm not really afraid of it. The thought doesn't give me anxiety, just a bit of excitement actually.

This is notable, as going to a nightclub gave me fear-induced diarrhea. Speaking to women terrifies me more than jumping out of a plane. If given the option to leap from a plane with a parachute or spend an hour talking to a woman, jumping out of a plane is the thought that scares me less.

What the everloving frick is going on here? What explains this? My belief is that there are things more terrifying than death, and most of them are socially related. Things like humiliation, rejection, and scorn. They are more real and easy to encounter than death so they become these massive monsters.

These social dangers also happen to be expertly wielded by women. Being rejected at university doesn't hurt like being rejected by a girl. I don't know why, but that's the way it is. Women hold this intense power to completely crush my sense of self-worth. A rejection from a woman feels like it's infused with moral castigation - as if you earned it because you're a bad person.

Getting a work rejection or something similar? Oh well, it's just a corporation. I've been rejected hundreds of times professionally. Had numerous applications that received the “we regret to inform you…” email and although it sucks, none of it crushed me to my core like getting rejected by S.H.

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Quick notes from Holly!

The phobia of women of women is known as gynophobia. It shouldn't be confused with misogyny, which is the hatred of women.

According to mythologist Joseph Campbell, gynophobia makes an appearance in plenty of global mythology. Most notably, in the form of vagina dendata - the toothed vagina. In Primordial Mythology he speaks of the Native American story of the boy living in a house of toothed vaginas: “they had strong teeth with which they had eaten their victims. But this medicine destroyed their teeth entirely.” The medicine made them orgasm, as is explained in the tale.

Of course Sigmund Freud would also have an opinion on gynophobia. Who cares!

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So, to sum up, I don't care too much about skydiving. I didn't prepare, and didn't read anything about the experience beforehand or what to expect. I didn't even research the business to see if it has a good track record. They could have ten deaths and I wouldn't know.

I purchased a skydive from the highest point offered which is from 11000 feet. I have no idea how high that is, but it comes with a 40-second freefall. Okay. There were also recording options. You could pay to have the fall recorded go-pro style or you could pay someone to record you from 3rd person, or you could opt for both. I went with the regular go-pro option because I wasn't interested in seeing my face. I just wanted proof that I did the thing.

They wanted payment beforehand, which I did and was grateful for because once again I was “locked-in” to the event and couldn't leave because I paid for it already. Consequently, I have no choice but to either act regardless of fear (of driving), or to lose all my money.

conclusion

I haven't fapped this year. I'm trying to touch grass. I'm working out at andsseing psychiatric help. Miracles happen to the deserving. People who crush the economy have duplicate lives. Killers hit hard and cheat. But, and, but /Jesus and the ultimate prof then maybe life has value there is something to be done here.

Last thing: why are inels considered misogynistic? As though men wo have gf arent? Clearly hating women isn't a turn-off unless you're ugly. Think about how “incel” killings there are to family annihilators and it becomes obvious that incels are no worse in their perceptions than regular men.

Not talking blackpikll/andew tate shit. I mean a normie is not worse to women than incels. Respecting women isn't the silver bullet (still, be kind to women.) they make it out to be.

I'd also like to write a report on the following topics

Christchruch massacre + royal report

Oxform shooter + legal analysis/or same for Orlando shooting

I don't want to be a narcissist wring about my own life essays. Would you read such a lengthy docmiementl Depednding on my mental stat Ill watch te videol and descrbe in full what happened during the events.