man liking women who kick butt but i had to be born with a vagina

okay i am straight. heterosexual. i love women. i worship women. i breathe women. my god how much i love women. id genuinely be a slave of one if i got the chance. i am easily manipulated by women in fact. they are my kryptonite. i am ready to establish the matriarchy if it means that i get to serve womens whims. anyway. i cannot get into a relationship with one.

i see like genuinely bad (and kind of ugly) dudes getting into relationships with girls and i cant help but have that pathetic little 'nice guy itch' at the back of my head. we get it you have a peepee, how lucky you are to have one!

im not even saying that im a good partner. im inexperienced, clingy, awkward, jealous and overprotective but i have genuinely seen SO MUCH WORSE. there was a guy that literally said SLURS, and made HITLER JOKES but somehow he still managed to get into a relationship with ANYONE, let alone a girl.

genuinely, the only women willing to talk to me are either gay, much older than me, taken or literally are not interested in dating in general.

i swear if i tried confessing to a straight girl shed think im a lesbian. im not saying because i am pessimistic and have a bad opinion of them but cause many girls demonstrated that they dont see me as a guy (or im just in the closet in some cases).

add several heartbreaks to all that and id probably be an incel, except my love of girls is stronger than that. checkmate.

anyways just kind of wanted to vent this shit unbearable