Facetuned my kitty to send to my ex and it still haunts me

Years ago I was dating a super hot guy who lived like an hour away from me so we sent each other a lot of nudes. I went through his phone once and saw he followed a page that was just for girls that had vaginas without lips and got super insecure because mine has lips right. So next time we were sending each other nudes I Facetuned it to make my lips smaller.

My plan was to be somewhat conservative with my edits so maybe in real life he wouldn't be able to tell but I am not skilled in mobile editing apps so it was probably ridiculous looking. It was years and years ago but sometimes I remember I did this and it ruins my day. Like today I was getting coffee with my mom and she was talking about the woman leading the opposition movement to Maduro in Venezuela and I just tuned her out thinking about this. A few weeks ago when I got into my phd program, I thought of this and my face dropped mid celebration. It's sobering to remember.

What kills me is I found out that you can see it was edited when you save it because the file is automatically named "facetunesomething" so I'm sure he knew. I try to remind myself that I broke up with him and he threatened suicide to feel better but I just knowwww he knows.