foid feels guilty about having too many orgasms

I've felt (I don't know...guilty?) about the imbalance in male and female sexuality pretty much since I became sexually active but especially since I (25F) got with my current boyfriend (26M) a few years back A typical session for us will result in me cumming probably about 10 times, sometimes more sometimes less depending on the circumstances and what we're doing. Whereas for my BF its always the same, just one orgasm. Sometimes we'll wait for about 20 mins or so and he can go again but he's outright told me before that the 2nd orgasm for him so soon after the first is not really enjoyable and he only really does it for my benefit and after two he's totally done for the day. So essentially I have more orgasms on a bad day than he has on a good day and when I put it that way I genuinely get upset on his behalf.

And this is without mentioning the issue of holding back orgasms during s*x which I don't feel this sub has touched upon enough from what I've seen. I simply cant imagine having to hold back an orgasm, it completely defeats the whole point of s*x in my mind, having to hold back would just make the whole experience more stressful than enjoyable as far as I can tell. Without meaning to sound like I'm bragging I'm really relieved I'm not a man because I know that if I was I'd absolutely suck at s*x because I c*m so quickly and I'd end up leaving my partners disappointed. This discrepancy in being able to just let go and enjoy s*x really doesn't sit well with me, I've been with men who suffered from premature ejaculation and against my better judgement I did find it frustrating when they came too quickly. But whereas for men there is seemingly no worse crime in the bedroom than cumming too soon for women its the complete inverse where there is no greater virtue than girls that c*m really quickly. They are admired by both genders as ideal sexual partners!!! How is this fair?!?!?

I suppose what I'm getting at is that I HATE this discrepancy in orgasms, I feel like some kind of selfish pleasure whore but I cant help it!!! I really wish my BF could experience what I feel and I really do give him all the blowjobs and most of the kinky stuff that he asks for to try an even the scales but I still feel guilty. Its not just guilt though its a weird cocktail of emotions, I don't like to use this word but I do think there is some degree of pity in there and I have to admit there's also a huge sense of relief that I'm a girl but in all honesty that just makes me feel even more guilty, like I'm being dismissive of the issue due to an accident of birth.

I raised all these points (or something similar) on another forum that I was a member of a few years back and the response I got from both men and women basically amounted to "Why do you care? Its not your problem, just enjoy yourself" the response from other women especially was almost hostile!!! Pointing out that I'm not just lucky for being a girl but also lucky amongst women as well many of whom don't have partners that can bring them to orgasm or who even struggle to climax by themselves. I suppose all that's true but it didn't really make me feel any better about it all :(

Anyway reading all that back I imagine some of you probably think I'm being dramatic or looking for problems where there are none but seriously for the last few years this has really ate at me on occasions. I'm not looking for a solution as such, I suppose there isn't one really, I just thought some of you might be interested in my perspective

Anywho thanks for reading :)