Let me just preface this by saying it's so over and that you shouldn't read this if you aren't one of my brocels or siscels (male) but lately I have become incredibly emotional.
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I and my boys (all 30 year old -cels) were playing CS and queue'd up with a random Swede or something and near the end of the game he said "This was the most fun I've had in a long time" and I started fricking crying. Unironically. Like the match wasn't even especially funny or anything, I just roasted him for having 0 headshots somewhere in the middle of the game by asking if he's saving them all for the next game or something and this guy couldn't stop talking or laughing after that. So once he said the aforementioned sentence idk I was imagining his life how he must have felt and how that little interaction made his entire week and I started fricking crying ffs
Then there's this event where I was buying groceries at a local supermarket and some Polish construction workers were debating which alcohol to buy and they counted their money and apparently they didn't have enough to buy what they wanted and since I can somewhat understand Slavic languages (well not any details or nuance or anything but like the gist of what they are talking about) I just had to pretend to search for something so I could listen to their conversation and they were arguing and I can't stand people getting upset so I just gave them like 20€ so they can buy what they want. They looked pretty shocked but reluctantly accepted the money and asked me to drink a beer with them but I cannot drink even though I used to love it because the last time I got drunk I get overcome by melancholy and uhh well like you know. Well anyways I once again started to cry thinking of their lives and what kind of things must have happened in their existence to make them argue about pocket change to buy alcohol.
I wouldn't even say I'm overly emphatic or anything but ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I cannot even browse this site any longer because I keep tearing up whenever you people link something that makes me feel sad 
So, I've tried some coping strategies but none of them seem to work especially that stoic cope I see online from time to time but people don't seem to grasp that Marcus Aurelius invented the concept of stoicism to distract himself from the things in his life because there was too much stuff going on. Online larpers (like me) have nothing going on in their existence so why even bother doing that? I've asked around other places online and many of them told me I should rope or go to therapy but I don't see how that will help me overthink everything. Maybe some of our smartest dramatards can give me some advice? (@Retaaaard
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Anyways, the video survey post is currently at 40k characters and while I'm not particularly proud of it I think it's quite decent so far.
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It’s part of growing older even tough that sound cliche it’s so. Also after many hardship and sadnesses having a bright moment with your friend bringing some joy because you know that’s not probably where you wanted to end up when you were 14 so him enjoying it kinda hit a nerve like despite it being not what you wanted he still enjoys is.
As fix you won’t be able to fix it and will become only more emotional. Only alternative is becoming a psycho and that’s probably not what you want.
So don’t think much about crying and shit you guys ain’t teenagers anymore and assuming you don’t pretend to impress foids so don’t shame your self for being a human being.
I hope you got my point
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