I have mastered emptying my mind while going to sleep.

I have been meditating for one plus year and finally mastered emptying my mind while lying down in bed to go to sleep.

As far as I can gather there are three types of meditation/ meditation adjacent functions:

1. Self awareness. This has nothing to do with controlling your thoughts but instead to be aware of what's within you and learning to know thyself.

2. Emptying the mind. This is what the current western school of thought appears to be more focused on. To use meditation as a tool to learn to empty your mind and remove junk data manually. You train yourself to focus on the moments where you are thinking of nothing until you get good at increasing the periods where you are thinking of nothing.

3. Deep alterations. This is message encoding within your subconscious. Of the three I believe this would be considered the most pseudo-scientific one a few decades back, I am not sure what it's status is right now. In this you remove all the thoughts in your mind, all the noise. You go down to the basement of your mind and plant your own message there to take root and spread. Alterations can be of personality or motivation. The more eccentric attempt to use it for biological modifications of the self.

I managed to encode a single instruction in the deepest depths of my subconscious that I could reach.

I now have to learn how to master my mind while awake, after which I have to learn how to master my mind while in stressful situations.

I had gotten stuck on the weight loss journey again for a moment, but have again continued to lose weight as I further upgraded myself.

My schedule for doing important things got destabilized as multiple unskippable expenses came up at once, so now I have to wait for a bit more money to come my way before I can continue some tasks.

In more positive news my writing skills have further improved, and so have my drawing skills.

I have continued to help around the neighborhood and have interacted with enough young women to now realize that I am still too ugly to pull off successful interactions with the fairer s*x.

I will likely have to get as far as hitting normal BMI completely before I have an actual chance at talking up strangers of the opposite gender without scaring them.

My anxieties disappear, my strength improves.

I accept the possibility that too much time has passed, but I still choose to believe in hope and salvation, brought about by great effort.

Good luck to me, and as always, good luck to you fellow journeymen and journeywomen and journeyximxers.