Maybe the reason that I've never had a boyfriend and don't have friends irl is because I've been overestimating my looks this entire time. : r/ForeverAloneWomen

I have lived my whole life in my head

It's the ONLY thing that has kept me alive for so long. All I do 24/7 is pretend I'm not living in a reality but I'm living in my head. If I DIDN'T daydream and create a fantasy world in my head I'd have committed suicide long ago. I feel so helpless and like I've never really been alive. I feel like a living corpse. I feel like I don't exist at all.

I literally imagine myself living in another world all the time; where I'm pretty, funny, and people care about me. The guy I love loves me back. I'm a completely different person living a completely different life that's NOT even comparable to this heck I'm living in. I made a whole story and about 'myself' and I even talk to the characters that I've created in my imaginary world, at first, I didn't mind it. It was making me feel better, making me happier than I had ever been, but now I'm very concerned. Every second of my life, I wish I lived that life and I find myself stuck in my room crying and talking to myself.

I swear I'm so fricking worthless as an ugly woman. I just want to die as soon as possible. I don't even want to be pretty anymore. I hate waking up every day feeling empty. It is literally making me sick every morning I wake up. Living is just a reminder of what I don't and what I will never have. God I just want to die.

Dramatards, how many of you is this?