Anybody Else Just Delete Their Post After One Single Downmarsey? Is This A Trauma Thing?

I was inspired to dig around for some delicious downmarsey trauma from @JimieWhales comment since I hadn't in a while and found a day old downmarsey trauma thread in my favorite girlboss sub, /r/CPTSD

I know I'm asking for downmarseys for this one, so this time I'm prepared lol.

Like you just poured your entire list of traumas and coping mechanisms into one post, you allow your heart to just let everything out, raw and uncensored, entirely of how you feel. You're sad, you needed to let it out, so you did. You're in a weak place right now.

You upload it, and the first reaction you get is that you're indirectly told that it's stupid or doesn't matter so people hit the dislike button. At least, to me, that's how it feels. Which is fair, not everyone on Earth is going to approve of me as a person or who I am or what I do. There are plenty of people on this planet who hate me. But honestly it just re-enables the notion that my trauma really is my fault, that I am a bad person, and sometimes I don't know wether it's a safe place to ramble or not if someone was so quick to say my issues were invalid in a sub that was literally created exactly for what the subject matter was about.

This is honestly though, with everything I ever post or upload. One Downmarsey, I delete it. One dislike on a YouTube video, I delete it. I don't know why I'm so sensitive, but one singular hint of someone disapproving my issues or me really expressing myself just sours my mood and I just go silent. My brain makes a big deal out of the most trivial things, even down to some stranger across the country who doesn't even know me judging who I am or what I say. Is this a trauma thing? Does anyone else deal with this? Why?? Why am I so darn sensitive to every little thing?

I think some of it is just trolling. When I sort by new there's been a few times that I've seen several posts in a row that have been downmarseyd to zero, like someone has just worked their way down the list and hit the down arrow.

Oh wow, that's such a piece of shit thing for someone to do on a sub like this...

Most of the time I post it and then immediately delete it because maybe someone will argue with me.

Years ago, I deleted my whole account for a downmarsey on a sensitive reply I made. And yes, definitely a trauma thing for me. Perfectionism can be brutal.

Upmarseying to counter all the downmarseys :) are you familiar with Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria?

time to add a new thing to the CTPSD/CFS/POTS/fibromyalgia/chronic lyme/long covid list

Decided to dig deeper into seeing who you're causing downmarsey trauma to when you're irresponsible with your heckin' downdoots.

Claims her dad is a narcissist for wanting to spend time with her. Mentions autism, anxiety, depression

Calls her mom a narcissist for not having enough money to pay a vet bill for a marsey with a broken leg

“If I had the number of chromosomes of how many times my posts have been automatically removed, I'd be an neurodivergent..”

Calls her mom a narcissist for refusing to play taxi for therapist appointment

“Is It Normal To "Seek Attention" So To Speak, Due To C-PTSD?”

Another example of her dad being a narcissist and giving her CPTSD for telling her about Santa Claus

How Do I Know If I'm Actually Having Depressive Thoughts Or If I'm Just Being An Attention Whore? (self.CPTSD)

Upset that her narcissistic parents aren't accepting of her art

“Does Anybody Have a Food Disorder or Eating Problem Due To Your Trauma?”

“Some random person on the street today shouted "FAT B-WORD" at me from the back seat of their car today.”