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dont read severe mental illness

i say this dead serious. my phantom kitty issues have gotten a lot worse recently. what the heck do i do? this is really deranged but it's like I know what it feels like to get peepeeed down and I absolutely need that rn. i started crying while making out with my fwb because i could feel her peepee rubbing up against my crotch and i just really wanted to put it into a hole that i dont have. im just wayyy to close to ending my life over this shit.

the horny is getting overwhelming. i'm nervous that all of the men in my life are going to notice that ive been checking them out. wtf do i do !cuteandvalid

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Have you ever imagined an axe cutting into your shoulder? I have and I swear I know what it feels like even though its never happened to me. This is not an axewound joke I'm just trying to say that your ability to imagine it probably has little significance other than fueling your dysphoria. I think its probably best for you to attempt to focus less on s*x and related acts and maybe try to come to terms with your body as it is. I think what helps me stabilize my mood the most is spending more time doing insignificant things like cleaning/reorganizing my room or going for walks. Maybe write your thoughts down in a journal if you aren't already.

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You're asking us to accept constant misery with no hope of it ever ending, and something almost no one else has to suffer. Yeah maybe it's possible to overcome, but that's probably a feat only a select few people could accomplish. I don't think other people understand the implications of perpetual torment, even if seemingly mild.

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What else is there to do? I mean you can't change your fate, as unfortunate as that is, so the only other option is to deal with it. I'm not saying you should stop being transgender, I just think its better to come to terms with you to come to terms with your physical condition as the alternative is a great deal of suffering and resorting to unnatural treatments that don't even work as far as I can tell (surgeries are certainly just harmful). I get it can seem impossible to do what I ask, but I think its to your benefit to try. Spending more time with others and finding new hobbies or spending more time on your hobbies will help you find more meaning in your life than your gender. Beyond that, over time you will change and that will change your perspective and that will probably help you as well. Most important is to not commit suicide as, once you do that, your life will 100% not get better. These are my views on it, at least, feel free to disregard if you like :marsey:

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Even if we assume suicide results in absolute nothingness (logically impossible), that's still better than a negative experience.

There's reasons I can't do it, but it would make sense.

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You claim that its logically impossible for suicide to result in nothingness, but isn't the likeliest scenario that it has a negative result meaning it could be worse than a negative experience?

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I don't plan on coming back to heck

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