It's a sad morning. I can't think of anything but the numerous rejections I've faced throughout my life. Women don't find me attractive, they've told me this in uncertain terms, and I don't know why it's taken me almost 30 years to finally get the message. In this post I'll share all the rejection I remember.
2006
My first rejection was a relatively mild one. It occurred when I was in 5th grade and I thought this girl in my class was cute. She was a Black girl and she had dated a friend of mine. I bought her chocolate and she rejected it completely and would not take it from me. After that it was awkward for the rest of year because we were in the same class and she knew I had a crush on her.
2007
In the 6th grade I had a crush on another Black girl in my class. I sat next to her, and she was a somewhat bigger girl. During camp, I admitted to my friends that I had feelings for her and they told her. She made it clear that the feelings weren't reciprocal. More awkwardness ensued as I had to sit next to her for the rest of the year.
2008
In the 7th grade the girls in my class made a "Hot or Not" list. Predictably, I was on the "Not" side. The list was passed around in class so my shame could be publicized. Right here, at age 13, when an entire room of girls could unanimously agree that I'm ugly, this should have been the moment when I accept that no women would ever find me attractive. Unfortunately, I had far too much hope.
2010
In the ninth grade, I dealt with my first major rejection. I had a crush on a girl in my class. She was Indian, and she was a good friend of mine. We'd hang around together a lot and she was nice to me. I wanted to do something nice for her when I asked her out so I learned HTML and I made a website dedicated to her. I brought my PSP to school and I showed her the website which ended with me asking her out. She rejected me and it was so painful it plunged me into depression. I had never felt heartbreak like that ever.
This wouldn't be the only rejection I suffered in 2010. I was part of a cohort that had an academic scholarship, and we were taken on a camp together with students from other schools who were part of the same scholarship. At night, the girls came to our dorm and fetched some of us because they wanted to play spin the bottle. What ensued is an evening of crippling shame. Every time the bottle landed on me, the girls would look upon me with abject disgust when they realised they had to kiss me. It became a running joke that I was the ugly, unwanted creature there giving women the ick. It was made abundantly clear to me that in no way did any of the women present find me remotely attractive and in fact they were positively repulsed by me. I will never forget this night. Brutal humiliation in front of my peers.
2011
I finally got a gf! She was a short, Black girl that seemed affectionately enough. However, she was cheating on me, she ignored me, and she constantly asked me for money. I knew she was cheating on me but I turned a blind eye because I finally had a gf, but it hurt me immensely and I couldn't take it anymore. I broke up with her in 2013.
2013
There was a girl, Black, who approached me and wanted me to help her with Physics since I was good at it and she wasn't. She started coming to my Physics afterschool tutorials with me, and because she was a poorcel, I paid for her lessons. I eventually developed feelings for her and I wrote her a love letter. She turned me down. It was emotionally brutal.
2014
In university, the girls in the cafeteria would make fun of me and call me a 14-year-old because I was short. I eventually stopped going and just ate food in my room in my third year until I moved out into my own place. Even the warden of my residence called me the "short one".
2016
This is the year I tried online dating. Got no matches on any of the apps. I chatted to one girl on Fetlife but when she saw my picture she started bullying me. This was also the year I gave up and started identifying as an asexual. I wove my past into a story of "compulsory heterosexuality" forged from ideas by feminist scholars such as Adrianne Rich. "I never wanted to date girls, I had simply been socialized that way!" The cope helped to alleviate the pain but as you all know, the delusion didn't last forever and I eventually gave up the asexual label and accepted that I was an incel, but that would take years.
One good thing came out of this, which is that I joined AVEN (Asexuality Visibility and Education Network) and met Sarah who would become a close friend of mine.
2023
After years of identifying as asexual, I got back into the game. I had a collossal crush on Sarah, and I couldn't hold it in anymore. I told her about it and I got brutally rejected. I wrote about it in this post.
https://rdrama.net/post/224434/i-told-my-friend-i-have
This rejection affected me immensely, and I fell into dangerous self-harm. I even ended up spending time in the psych ward in part because of the heartbreak. I couldn't handle it.
Conclusion
These are just some of the more notable rejections I have suffered. I've felt hate from teachers, police, and random looks of disgust in public. I've had babies in public comment on how dark I am, and people are shocked I'm old enough to drive. I'm stuck in forever childhood. I am a beast, a cretin, I am Frankenstein's monster. I was born at the bottom of the totem pole in terms of race, and I have been cursed to look up at everybody for my whole life. Do you know how brutal it is to have everybody looking down on you? My life as a five foot one blackcel has been a string of bad memories and rejections, and the truth is that it's fricking awful. Moving through society is hard as a five foot one black male. The strength it takes to go outside... sometimes I don't have it.
When normies are rejected, it's usually for something that they can improve upon. "I don't like shy guys", "we're not into the same things", "I like buff guys". When incels are rejected, they are usually experiencing genuine forms of prejudice and discrimination. We are shunned because of things we cannot change - we're short, or ugly, or dark-skinned, or the wrong race.
If you failed because of those factors in any other endeavor in life, and you expressed pain and trauma, you would be completely heard and sympathized with. e.g. if you lose a job because you're too shy, well that's a geniune reason to not hire someone. If you lose a job because you're ugly, EVERYONE would understand why you're hurt and traumatized by that. Yet, for some reason, people pretend to be oblivious to the source of our pain when we explain that we're being rejected and discriminated against because of ugliness, height, and other factors we cannot change.
If you were black and you couldn't get a job no matter how much you studied, the horror of your life would be obvious to all. If you're short, and you can't get a gf no matter what you achieve in your life, there is seemingly no reason for you to be upset, according to normies.
This is the reason why I will NEVER act on my feelings for women EVER AGAIN. If you've ever been redpilled you must have heard some variation of this advice: "Rejection is nothing bro! I challenge you to get rejected by 100 girls! The more rejection you experience the easier it gets!" It's not true. Rejections beat you down more. They crush what little self-esteem you have left. Nothing good comes from rejection. It is good to avoid rejection, it is an act of self preservation.
I'd like ONE (1) single biological woman here admit that they would date a 5'1 male. Be HONEST. It's OVER and we all know it. If you're about to turn 30 and you've experienced nothing but rejection your whole life, it is highly unlikely that fate will suddenly change on my 30th birthday and I'll suddenly become a Chad. The biggest predictor of the future is past patterns, and women have made it clear that they don't want me. I accept that, I hope to accept it as maturely as possible. I don't hate women, I don't think they're bad, and I don't blame them for not being attracted to me. However, I can't deny that it hurts like heck.
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Holy frick man
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aaaaaa this hurts to read
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That's trying too hard. Way too hard. All the way over into "creepy stalker I have a shrine dedicated to you and I collect the rubbish you drop and keep it in my shrine and once I managed to secretly cut off a lock of your hair and by the way my basement prison to keep you locked up in forever is coming along nicely" territory.
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That stright out of lame nerd romance comedy
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I actually thought that was really sweet ❤️✨
@sneedman you have a beautiful heart. Get jacked cute twink and go smash some kitty
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Bro he suffered enough, leave him alone
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It literally doesn't matter he's 5'1" and black he'd have to find a pygmy in the Congo to get laid.
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Even if this is fiction it causes physical pain from the cringe.
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what psp games did you have? i heard owning an official copy of star wars battlefront elite squadron instantly jump-starts your peepee, attracting dozens of kweencels with its scent alone !g*mers !starkings
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FIFA, SSX On Tour, Liberty City Stories, Echochrome are some of the ones I can remember.
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i was a DScel but I remember a kid on the bus having a !familyman minidisc he'd watch on the way to schol
watching TV on the go??
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the fricking psp had an sd card port. I had a fricking 1gb and had multiple !familyman episodes along with a fricking bootlegged copy of 300 while it was fricking still in theatres. psp was the fricking best, motherlover!
!slots100
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Vice City Stories
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Harvest moon and Jean De Arc
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That's not nearly enough. It's really all just about numbers, if you talk to enough women eventually you find one you click with. Incels are jumpy and fearful, get rejected once and then stress about it until the end of time. What they don't realise is that chads get rejected all the time. They just don't care and try again with the next woman until it works.
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@sneedman read this guy's comment. Yes, from your stories you are most likely ugly, and that is a serious impediment towards your dating life. I won't downplay that at all, because it's fricking rough for truly physically ugly men.
If you're willing to looksmatch (and I mean for real, you have to not give a frick at all what they look like if you're as bad as you say), you will eventually find success. Befriend women, even ones that are unavailable to you (married, too attractive, etc). Learn that they're human just like the rest of us. You have a habit of putting one specific woman on a pedestal and internalizing the damage from their rejection, stewing and brooding on it as proof that you're unlovable.
Every guy you see on the street with a girl has been in your shoes. Where you, and many incels, are different from them is that you take rejection much, much harder. It hurts you and deeply damages you to the point of making it a focal personality trait.
I can't give you advice on how to let it go because my brain does not work like that. Just know that you are a smart and thoughtful guy and somebody will appreciate that. They aren't all roasties and thots. They don't all want Chad.
I have a feeling you probably have a hard time understanding attraction from a woman's perspective, which is why youve gone after women that don't have an interest in you. Keep at it and in time, you'll find someone who shows you the difference.
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Poor sneedman.
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Not entirely true, used to mod an incel dungeon groomercord, plenty of them rapid fire approach women like that jay rockefeller guy. The big problem is their interest, few women share them, and those that do are either just as deranged as them and/or have other options.
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These don't count as sincere attempts. Rapid fire cold approaches is a strategy from old school PUAs in order to get moids used to rejection, not to get them laid.
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Just spread rumors about yourself that you strangled some chick and never got caught. You'll get a lot more female attention because women want to die, apparently.
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i'd be so embarrassed if i fell victim to a dwarf serial killer
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Hybristophilia is real because only chads have the balls to commit violent crimes or something
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It's because of dudes like genghis. Back in the dark age you bear children to or you get the club. Hence evolutionary advantage not to turn down the eventual murderer of husbando.
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I don't know why you started with 5th grade.
Surely your first rejection by a woman was the same one we all experience: being expelled in disgust from your mother's womb, squeezed brutally out, in a gush of fluids, into a harsh and unforgiving world.
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Not me, I won that fight and had to be literally ripped out through the abdominal wall
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!incels would you consider getting neutered to lessen your suffering?
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!metashit sneedman had a gf
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fakecel
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Would you really call it a gf though, or was I just a simp getting fleeced?
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did you smash?
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!incels @sneedman refuses to answer, therefore implying he's a s*x haver
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This is the very question he needs to answer. Fakecel if he did.
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@sneedman answer the question
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@sneedman - bro please answer
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Prince was 5'2" and from what I've read, he got laid with women before he became famous. Try to sexuality/sensuality-maxx. You can't do much to change your height, but you might be able to learn how to ooze so much male sexual energy that it doesn't matter.
Don't try to attract women by spending money or verbalizing your feelings before you've had any sexual interaction with them. Instead, focus on your energy, vibe, eye contact and so on.
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Just become a global pop icon bro!
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Given Prince's off-the-charts level of sexual charisma, I'm pretty sure he had little problem getting laid even before he became famous.
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You don't become famous over night, he absolutely only started getting laid when he adopted the flamboyant musician persona
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How well can you sing though?
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"Just become Danny DeVito, bro!"
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Holy frick he was 5'2
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Yeah, Prince was tiny, why do you think he leaned so hard into the androgynous 'maybe I'm bi you'll never know for sure but I get all the girls' look? He had to wear heels but he learned how to make it work.
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r u a fricking virgin
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He's a 5'1" mentally unstable heterosexual male, what do you think?
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You are asking sneedman
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oof
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And black and not rap maxing
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Live like this guy
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Shouldn't have let your mom cut me off
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!chuds its the same b-word
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Sneed I think the problem isn't that you are short, it is that you are sweet, caring and have feelings.
I've known short people, fat people and ugly people that could get a date but they had really honed their skills whether they were music, confidence, finances, etc.
While women surely prefer tall, ripped and handsome people, they are far more lenient than males when it comes to what may affect them emotionally.
All those people I knew could play with the mind of a woman and could create a separate image of themselves that was irresistible to them.
My advice is start working out. Every fricking day. You can build confidence from there. Don't cry and be a wimp about it.
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Agreed until the working out thing which is minimally effective on women and mostly something for moids to show each other. Instead learn how to talk to women and entertain them and make them feel 'heard'
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Yeah but it'll help build his confidence and reduce his sense of helplessness.
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Working out isn't to attract women, it's to make a guy more confident so he doesn't self-sabotage
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Less man care about girl having a vagina or xx chromosome than girls care about height. His way out is getting rich and funny
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can confirm that creating a sexy image of yourself works but I'm tall(ish) and white
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Neighbor, ugly dudes get kitty all the time, it's the autism that is holding you back, not your looks
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!incels remember that when normies say this, by "ugly dude" they mean 6/10.
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Depends on what you mean by 6/10
Neighbor's with personality go up a lot despite being objective uggos.
Women love different than we do neighbor, they can love an ugly neighbor if he makes her laugh.
Granted I'm 6'4 so maybe I'm just living on EZ mode.
But if your below like 5'8 just transition.
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