Not quite like I was last. I'm doing the shitty drugs that are stereotyped as being used by the socially r-slurred tech bro micro-optimisation life hack class, the ones who take (((nootropics))) not drugs. I'm slamming back memantine, phenibut, and uncomfortable amounts of caffeine. Since I've been a little zooted and deinhibited I also tried getting some modafinil analogs on order, I probably got scammed but maybe it'll come in.

My nervous system is on edge but my mind is too lost in the sauce to feel the same. I just feel off, alert but I feel nothing. Don't bother with these bullshit drugs, do the real things. The real things will ruin your life but you'll at least feel like you're climbing up while you're falling down. You'll experience nirvana and heck during the same day. It's exciting. I felt confused, but alive. I saved the world by peeling off my toenails.

Right now I'm just acutely aware I'm drugging myself with none of the fun parts that come along with that. Just mildly reduced inhibitions encouraging me to post this L. Not reduced enough to go back to onions and induce bipolarism again. It almost was, maybe if the last DNM I used was still there. I don't feel like sifting through markets and finding old vendors, or finding trustworthy new ones if the old vendors I used are gone. I'm pretty sure all the good PCP analogs are gone anyway, don't tell me if they aren't I'd rather believe they're gone and unobtainable. I'll keep my job on these shitty drugs, I probably won't keep my job if I go back to the good shit.

I'll get off this cocktail in a few days, probably. Not that good. Namaste.

Post drugs you have taken or maybe will take during this Friday or perhaps throughout the entire weekend. Yes I am essentially just bumping this hole so that it doesn't get deleted again.

I've been clean for a while no cravings but I woke up today FIENDING. Absolutely nothing could go wrong if I follow this impulse. Namaste

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Post where he talks about stopping his meds from 11 days ago

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I took half a pill and I didn't get high just kinda violently nauseous and sick. I can't eat or drink anything without throwing it up. Wtf these things suck

I feel goooof

Will start by saying that I'm not a degenerate with drugs. I almost exclusively take them socially, so my experience has always been with alcohol, cigs, zyns (no vapes because I'm not a cute twink), weed, mushrooms, lsd, coke (rarely), and mdma. Essentially what you'd find inside a typical rave. Recently I tried Meth and Percocet, on two separate occasions. There was some part of me that was afraid that this would be the beginning of a degeneracy spiral. But coming away from these experiences, I'm left confused, because both of them are shitty and lame.

• I'll start with Meth . I normally test my Molly but was handed a pill at a function by a friend, and sort of without thinking, I took it (found out later it tested positive for meth). Wow, what a shitty high. It literally just felt like a "rougher" version of Molly with was less of the fun euphoria. I basically only got an energetic burst, but even in that regard, it was shittier than cocaine which I've only taken twice. The euphoria was also less of the "I love everyone" signature MDMA high and more "I want to move and run around."

• Next is the Percocets . This is the most recent experience which inspired this post. I was prescribed percocets for a medical procedure that I had roughly two months ago and never really needed them because I'm not a kitty. Sort of out of morbid curiosity, I decided to take a total of 10mg, which Erowid says is on the border of a common-high dosage. I literally felt almost nothing but a bit of warmth inside and a small amount of euphoria. I went on a walk, which was nice, and it wasn't like I had a bad time. But the affects were not nearly as acute as I was expecting.

So, coming away from thi, are hard drug users actually r-slurred? I hear stories of people getting addicted to meth and opiates all the time and I cannot fathom how this happens. I guess if opiates are the only thing relieving your chronic pain thats one thing. But how could anyone find the symptoms of these good enough to abuse them to an addiction level recreationally? Especially when much better drugs exist.

• MDMA and cocaine blow these so far out of the water. Honestly, not even that. A bottle of grey goose washes Percocet.

• And I haven't even talked about safety yet, being that almost anything is much safer than opiates or meth.

• The affects of literally any psychedelic are also 10x better than this shit.

• Is it because of price? No. I googled the street price for Oxy as around 12-40 dollars per pill and Meth around 80/gram so 16/dose. Meanwhile, the price I pay for 220ug of LSD is 2.50 per tab and MDMA as 10 per point. So you're not even getting a "better" deal on a per high basis.

• Is it because of ease of access? I can't imagine it is. I wouldn't even know where to look to buy opiates but all the local dealers on telegram are easy to find.

I am now genuinely curious. Can someone illuminate this issue for me?

Choose your fighter!

stimulants - 19 votes

opioids - 7 votes

depressants - 4 votes

hallucinogens/psychedelics - 22 votes

dissociatives - 4 votes

cannaboids - 7 votes

inhalants - 2 votes

36mg Hydromorphone 🤯🤯🤯 I think this the highest dosage dilly line I ever did. pic.twitter.com/9WL3l6MqGR

— Ryan (@kvkgod) August 11, 2023

edit: going back over this to make things more clear

took a lot of acid (roughly 3 gels, so around 700ug) and sat in near total darkness. I brought in a pen and paper and a speaker, didnt expect much but was still very curious. if anyone is interested I can post photos of the symbols/iconography this experience inspired in me.

four hours later:

• Genuinely terrified

• got literal fnaf style jump scares from demons that emerged from my own imaginations on the wall. I would hallucinate a face, it would jump out and make my physically jump.

• Felt like a malevolent, evil force was surrounding me. Seemed like it took an immense level of mental strength to just exist without crawling up into a ball.

• I actually thought that I was talking to a demon, and that I had made a huge mistake. moments where I could quite literally hear a voice in my mind that didnt sound like me, didnt talk like me, and said things I wouldn't say.

overall, maybe would recommend? This is probably the most vivid visual experience ive ever had, like, ever. Absolutely the closest thing you can have to a religious experience. And mentally it brought me straight up to the brink of insanity. Even as I type this there are eyes and faces in the dark behind my screen.

Won't be live posting because I'm hugging grass. Just checking in at the start to make sure this hole isn't only benadryl/dxm nerds and "hurr can I grow my own cocaine" threads

I'm trying shrooms for the first time. I want to take 1g of shrooms with my ex as trip sitter (she is a trans woman). I'm worried that I might get confused and misgender her or deadname her. Worse, I'm worried I might start seeing things and like… see her the way she was when she was presenting male and say some things I'll regret. Is 1g enough to make me lose my filter?

Maybe she should try them. It might enlighten her to embrace who she really is. Whether that be her true male self or confirming her choice to transition

Tomorrow I will slowly eat a half a bottle of oxies between bites of Haagen Dasz Pina Colada ice cream while getting head from a 19yo twink.

I am paying him a handsome fee to suck my peepee for 6 hours straight.

I have informed him that I may "fall asleep", but not to stop sucking because I want a wet dream. At some point he will realize I'm not actually sleeping.

Edit: This post is a joke. It's the internet you r-slurs lol.

IT'S BEEN 8 FRICKING HOURS, I HAVEN'T SLEPT ALL NIGHT, I HAVE A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT IN A COUPLE HOURS AND MY PUPILS ARE RIDICULOUSLY DILATED

also the forced login is fricking with mobile firefox and I have to use chrome to post this

I want to sleep so badly

edit: they wore off enough by the time I got to the doctors, they didn't suspect anything and I got to stare at the floor tiles

Non-opioid analgesics and their metabolites may activate cannabinoid receptors, as well as elevate endocannabinoid levels through different mechanisms: reduction of endocannabinoid degradation via fatty acid amide hydrolase and/or cyclooxygenase-2 inhibition, mobilization of arachidonic acid for the biosynthesis of endocannabinoids due to cyclooxygenase inhibition, inhibition of endocannabinoid cellular uptake directly or through the inhibition of nitric oxide synthase production, and induction of endocannabinoid release.

I took the free booze the 2nd time Idk what happened to the first one. Left the 2nd one out there for like 3 days in the baking sun before I took 3 beers out of a 6 pack left there. THIS ISNT NORMAL. I bought a bunch of white claws to leave there as payback. Should I leave a note? This is very rich suburban territory I'm crashing at rn.

I'm just disappointed.

I know it's a learning process and contam is never 100% avoidable but I am having bad luck lately and it's taking more money to grow than it is to buy. I still want to try growing fungi in the future, but I'm just burnt out.