My beloved doxxer Krayon (sister toucher) Philosopher has decided to abandon us. He asked me to post his manifesto so he could get a few things off his chest before he leaves.
Hey jannies, it's Krayon (sister toucher) here. Frozens posting this for me.
My one final request to you is that it be pinned.
Anyways, I'm leaving this site for good now that I've been perma-jannied. This is my final post.
SECTION 0: INTRODUCTION:
Hey, rdrama. As you may or may not know, I, @Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher, also known by the usernames
@Krayon (sister toucher)Eater and
@NeurodivergentSupremacist, have been banned. And it seems all my alts are getting permanently purged as well.
You may not know who I am, you may not care, but on the off-chance that you do, I wanted to say a few final words as I leave this place.
IMPORTANT: You may not want to read all this shit, that's ok. I've labeled different sections so feel free to skip around to the less neurodivergent ones.
SECTION 1: Is this unironic?
You may be wondering if this is a joke right now, and well it's not. However I hope it can provide you some measure of entertainment regardless, and I hope it can give me some measure of peace.
SECTION 2: Why Im making this post.
If you're wondering why the heck I'm writing this, then I'll start with that, and this answer should explain a lot.
For one, if you haven't figured it out, I'm kind of an attention whore, and yes I mean that completely unironically. I have a deep set, irrational, psychological need for attention. Im aware of it, but I can't exactly change it, so I'll just do what attention whores do best and refuse to shut the frick up about it.
For another, this site has become I larger part of my life than I'd like to admit in recent months, and leaving it gives me a large feeling of grief and loss, sad as that may sound. Of course, since nobody I know irl knows about my presence here, I would have to suffer this loss in silence, unless I posted about it, like I'm doing. And I really hate the idea of having my thoughts die with me.
Lastly, if you haven't guessed it from the severe outbursts where my autism shines through for all to see, I don't have many friendships in real life, and even fewer close friendships. This place has become a great social outlet both for very core parts of who I am, as well as that little part of me in the back that I don't want anyone else seeing.
SECTION 3: My background with Rdrama, life story, and an neurodivergent exercise in both stroking me ego and playing the victim.
So with those reasons stated, let's move on to a brief history of @Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher1, and of the real person: the now banned account that was my original account here, and my other accounts, as well as my history in the dramaverse.
I started browsing r/drama on reddit during my junior year of highschool. I was spending a lot of time online at the time because life was kind of going to shit. With no close friendships, and the amount of friends I did have slowly decreasing due to me either staying away from them due to social anxiety or me acting like an neurodivergent edgelord clown saying offensive shit for the high of a few cheap laughs and a whole lot of negative attention, I had a very weak social life.
That small, toxic social life pretty much vanished as existential depression regarding the apparent meaninglessness of life and the pointlessness of doing anything consumed me.
For a quick background on that, during my childhood and early adolescence I was a very devout christian, in a large part due to my dad who was probably my closest friend throughout childhood due to me being an neurodivergent elementary schooler in a small suburb, with few/no friends. Then I had a huge existential crisis about if god was bullshit, lost faith, and got really depressed.
But with all that going on, and then having to go into quarantine because of COVID, I found my coping mechanism. Or rather, I found r/drama. I fell in love with it quickly.
As I said already, I had kind of adopted this edgelord clown personality, or sub-personality, during my early teens. Originally this was an attempt to fit in and to make it look like I wasn't a little kid, since both are really fricking hard for sperg children. But for better or worse that edgelord shit became part of my real personality. And rdrama fit with that r-slurred, overdramatic, edgy persona perfectly.
It was hilarious watching rdrama from a third person perspective. It was like a demented reality tv comedy and I'll forever cherish those lurking days. They lasted for about a year. During the first half of that time I did really well, I thought I had found purpose and I was really accomplishing things and loving life.
Then life and depression hit me again and I became more online again, spending more and more time on r/drama.
SECTION 4: the fall of r/drama and the pilgrimage to rdrama.net
It started as the coom grip of the powerjannies grew tighter around r/drama and around the admins. The admins had slowly became dictators in their crusade to purge all rightoid wrongthink from the interwebs, after rightoids elected an ADHD manchild with a God complex as president. Rdrama quickly became a target.
A long while after the purge began, during a period when many punishments were inflicted against drama by the admins, and after I had found this wounded, yet still flourishing at the time subreddit, and been there for a while, a great thing occured.
In the shadow of ruqqus, a band of rdrama ruqqoids who had left earlier in the drama diaspora, created a new website, a home where all dramanauts could live in (relative) peace, and enjoy their freedom to sperg out and make drama however they wished. And It was named rdrama.net.
Quickly after it's creation I joined rdrama.net. I couldn't actually participate in r/drama but I wanted somewhere to actually talk to people because of how small my social life had become.
I didn't do much at first, but after a week and a half I started posting more, and then more, and more, and more.
God knew I'd be too powerful if I had a normal childhood
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SECTION 5: Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher: The rise
My first post was a spergout/bitchpost about how there wasn't enough actual drama on the site, admittedly because I was mad so much of the drama was just making fun of spergs like myself.
rDrama had mixed responses to my post, which for rdrama means I was doing great. Emboldened by my upmarseys, I quickly began posting the drama I wanted to see on the site, and quickly became addicted to the culture and community of the site.
I posted shit about current events, I posted a huge longpost about coomers simping
for the Samsung mascot, a post about star wars nerds arguing, and yes, I also made more complaint posts.
SECTION 5.1: Spergs and sadists
As time went on I grew more and more disturbed and angered by a subculture of sadistic bullying on rdrama. I could have just left the site if I didn't like it, but rdrama had become a part of daily life for me, and I liked it, while still hating large parts of it.
I was especially disturbed by a comment on a dramapost about some depressed neurodivergent furry who, while pathetic, didn't seem like a bad person. The comment said, and I'm paraphrasing, "I know you're here, watching us, wondering whether to pull the trigger and blow your brains out. You should."
I replied telling off this person, because honestly I felt bad for the pathetic neurodivergent, they were still just an innocent person going through shit in life and they were already unhappy with life. To unironically tell them to kill themselves when they were already all but void of happiness seemed just cruel. On that post I got support and people seemed to think the other guy went to far.
But over time I became angrier with Rdrama as "people" like Landlord began to become the loudest voices on the site.
As I realized more and more that the site was becoming a place for sadists to bully internet weirdos down on their luck, my neurodivergent counteractions became larger and larger.
At one point I posted a sociopathy test to show the more sane people on rdrama how many dramatards were genuinely terrible people.
SECTION 5.2: The great Spergout
That became my goal: to show the more moral dramatards the more sadistic users of the site in all their vileness.
I began to formulate a plan: take one of the more sane and innocent, but still kind of weird, so to speak dramatards. Then, expose them in some vulnerable way to the site, and watch as the bloodthirsty sharks of rdrama.net tore them apart.
Their inevitable harassment by immoral dramatards would show how many of the sites users, and which of them, were really shitty people.
And one fateful day, I found my bait.
On the rdrama groomercord, and later privately, I had been talking to
@FrozenChosen who started with me because of my apparent interest in philosophy.
Now frozen had become hated by some on this site, and I knew they would tear her apart like the animals they are if they smelled blood in the water.
So I drew blood from frozen, metaphorically speaking. I made an alt. Then I took her groomercord profile pic, did an AI image search, found a pic that looked close enough, and ""doxxed"" her. Immediately the sharks ripped her apart. However, the people with a moral compass that pointed north more than twice a day, the very people I wanted to make a point to, ripped into me for what I did.
After I spammed the site with both pictures and with my message of why I did it, my alt was eventually shadowbanned and nuked.
The next morning when I got onto rdrama, I found that my accounts, including my main, had been banned. The storied existence of
@Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher, had come to an end.
SECTION 6: The return.
And so Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher was gone...
for the next 36 hours.
I was not ready to leave the site. So, I sat down, made an alt (@Krayon (sister toucher)Eater) and started my new existence on rdrama by making a minor effortpost on Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher, myself, from the 3rd person, detailing my spergout and resulting ban without revealing that I was Krayon (sister toucher).
Essentially, it was secret attention whoring. Kind of oxymoronic to put it that way but that's basically what it was.
After a while of mostly lurking, I began hinting that about my TRUE fake internet identity, Krayon (sister toucher). After I was discovered I admitted for the sake of my reunion with fellow dramatards who had known me.
I was promptly shadowbanned from the site, until I whined to
@Aevann and showed him that I had apologized to
@FrozenChosen, (bless her and her grace), for my obvious mental disability.
After being let back I didn't really do much, and I began to realize that since I had realized how toxic and abusive the site was at times, it would never be the same for me.
I did get back into moralstragging briefly, when I started to defend pitbulls in pointless internet arguments with a dog killer on this site. Who was, and is, a horrible person.
On this account I also gave carp a picture of my balls so I could power trip and ban people.
I got fricking repulsed by how the dog killer,
@gigvaccinator seemed to enjoy animal suffering so I sperged out at him, called him a monster a few times, and banned him with awards a few more.
I also made posts showing off my sweet pibble mix dog.
And then returned, the sperg within.
SECTION 7: The End of Krayon (sister toucher)
When the rdrama country club started and the prereqs were raised, I got pissed. I didn't have enough coin to join once the requirements changed, or so I thought.
However, all the new requirement was, was an account age limit.
I discovered this by sending my dramacoin to my old account, now called @Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher1.
Except their was a problem, I couldn't send them back from a banned account. So I got angry, so angry that when I found a security issue in the sites source code later that day I threatened to not report it and to exploit it unless I was compensated
This resulted in a total purge of my accounts. While only 2 accounts were "banned", the others were shadowbanned and I think I'm IP banned now as well.
I honestly just don't have enough fun with this site anymore to start over. And honestly the culture of this site is to toxic to be good for anyone. So that's it. My time here is over.
SECTION 8: FINAL WORDS:
So I wanted to end it with this. Because, like I said, I'm plagued by existential fears. One of those fears is the fear that every though I have that wasn't expressed will die with me, and that without my thoughts being known, people will never have truly known me.
So here they are: my thoughts, laid bare for rdrama.
And finally, I wanted to say goodbye to those of you who are truly decent people.
To
@FrozenChosen, for giving me a forgiveness that helped me make peace with shit in real life, to
@MasterLawlz for your hilarious shitpost, to
@Wizdumb337 for caring enough to ask about my vacation, and to
@Aevann for making this whole horrific thing possible.
See you all when cloudflare boots us. Bye.
God knew I'd be too powerful if I had a normal childhood
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Who is this rslur and why does he type like a shitty first draft of a Saturday morning cartoon villain
Buddy you put a picture of some random foid user here into a free website and posted a picture it found of her, it’s not some devious master plan. I got pinged and shadowbanned you and went to sleep and never thought of it again until today. It took about 15 seconds.
Seriously what is this nonsense lmao
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this is... drama?
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mood
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darn carp I didn't know you had such a nice rack
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venmo me daddy uwu
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Cashapp is the #1 platform for begging for free handouts, chud
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that headline is brutal lmao
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Holy jesus carp I think that foid might have turned me straight????
DM pics of your bussy immediately to fix me pls
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Incel fuel
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This is autism in its purest, almost sacred, form.
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Mental illness? Autism? Both?
Who cares. I'm enjoying it.
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Dude messaged me like 5 times yesterday asking about the country club and pinged me right before you shadowed him. I saw his little rant that was a pre-rant about this rant when I went there and clicked his name. It's so ridiculous it's almost like some larp.
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Oh no I shadowed him like a month ago when he posted an old picture of frozen he’d creeped off google. Looking at my dms now (I almost never check dms) and he’s messaged me a ton over the past few weeks
Oops
I should probably look at messages more often.
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> Not letting us stalk and doxx our few foid users
This is why we need the Hand Maidens Tale.
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Now things start making sense.![marseyrage](/e/marseyrage.webp)
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Smh I also messaged you some time ago and you never replied, I thought what we had was special 😒
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It's just
@FrozenChosen 's latest project.
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pls say r slur sweaty
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Fixed, thank you!
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You've taken the words out of my mouth
Based jannie????
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“For you, the day Carpathianflorist graced your profile page was the most important day of your life. But for me, it was Tuesday.”
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ya but like where is that pic actually?
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Wow, you must be a JP fan.
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This is why you can't be nice to weirdos.
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He was a highschool weirdo who took internet shit way too seriously. He missed the entire point of rdrama, too laugh at the people who do take it seriously. All you weirdos who use groomercord to get to know each other need to go outside and stay off the internet for a week. Your life will improve.
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I don't get the whole groomercord thing at all. Like I spend most of my time online here on the site and I actually do touch grass almost every day. But this is my main place I visit There's people who are on here just as much as me then they're on groomercord and they're on reddit getting content. How do they have the time? And you're absolutely right it's weird. Sorry guys that do it but it's weird.
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Groomercord has voice chat, which was its original primary function, for gaming. Hearing others' physical voices tricks brains into thinking it's more real life than the Internet, I think.
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I don’t think he was ever in the groomercord
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Didn't he say he got frozen's picture from the groomercord?
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idfk I only skimmed it
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I thanked you for your kindness and this is what I get? smh.
But seriously i did regret the doxxing thing
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I saw your sperg out from last nite too. It had a whole John Doe from 'Se7en' vibe to it. If that what you were going for congratulations.
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You know what? Frick it ill take it.
I'll probably come back at some point, maybe a couple months, maybe longer. I just need to get my shit together. If you couldn't tell i'm going a little insane right now.
But, as I said in my post, I did always like you. We good until I get back?
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Sure just don't sperg out irl dude. work through your shit and don't take the whole internet thing so serious. Want me to be the George to your Lenny and do the honors of one last ban from me?
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Thanks. I'll keep the windowlicking to a minimum
Alright, sure. Ban me. Give me the hammer, im ready.
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Dude maybe have a talk with your parents about all of it. The 1st step to help is knowing you need help. You're already there.
Now krayon (sister toucher) look across that river.
See the grass? How inviting it is? Imagine going over there and touching it. Close your eyes and imagine your bare feet on it.
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Viking funerals don't have shit on this sendoff. Now if only he would pretend it was a viking funeral and not come back.
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This is why I stay away from groomercord
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How is it possible that I visit this site every day but never have any idea what the frick is going on?
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That just means you have a fulfilling life outside this r-slurred ebullying site
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Same here. I just try my best to act like I belong.
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So this is the dramatard you banged, got it
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Nah that was someone else.
God knew I'd be too powerful if I had a normal childhood
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😴😴😴
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All those words words words and he doesn't even mention me once? Rood
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Edit: rslur
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