The neurodivergent's last sperg: Krayon (sister toucher)'s manifesto (no google doc link)

Part 2

SECTION 5: Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher: The rise

My first post was a spergout/bitchpost about how there wasn't enough actual drama on the site, admittedly because I was mad so much of the drama was just making fun of spergs like myself.

rDrama had mixed responses to my post, which for rdrama means I was doing great. Emboldened by my upmarseys, I quickly began posting the drama I wanted to see on the site, and quickly became addicted to the culture and community of the site.

I posted shit about current events, I posted a huge longpost about coomers simping

for the Samsung mascot, a post about star wars nerds arguing, and yes, I also made more complaint posts.

SECTION 5.1: Spergs and sadists

As time went on I grew more and more disturbed and angered by a subculture of sadistic bullying on rdrama. I could have just left the site if I didn't like it, but rdrama had become a part of daily life for me, and I liked it, while still hating large parts of it.

I was especially disturbed by a comment on a dramapost about some depressed neurodivergent furry who, while pathetic, didn't seem like a bad person. The comment said, and I'm paraphrasing, "I know you're here, watching us, wondering whether to pull the trigger and blow your brains out. You should."

I replied telling off this person, because honestly I felt bad for the pathetic neurodivergent, they were still just an innocent person going through shit in life and they were already unhappy with life. To unironically tell them to kill themselves when they were already all but void of happiness seemed just cruel. On that post I got support and people seemed to think the other guy went to far.

But over time I became angrier with Rdrama as "people" like Landlord began to become the loudest voices on the site.

As I realized more and more that the site was becoming a place for sadists to bully internet weirdos down on their luck, my neurodivergent counteractions became larger and larger.

At one point I posted a sociopathy test to show the more sane people on rdrama how many dramatards were genuinely terrible people.

SECTION 5.2: The great Spergout

That became my goal: to show the more moral dramatards the more sadistic users of the site in all their vileness.

I began to formulate a plan: take one of the more sane and innocent, but still kind of weird, so to speak dramatards. Then, expose them in some vulnerable way to the site, and watch as the bloodthirsty sharks of rdrama.net tore them apart.

Their inevitable harassment by immoral dramatards would show how many of the sites users, and which of them, were really shitty people.

And one fateful day, I found my bait.

On the rdrama groomercord, and later privately, I had been talking to @FrozenChosen who started with me because of my apparent interest in philosophy.

Now frozen had become hated by some on this site, and I knew they would tear her apart like the animals they are if they smelled blood in the water.

So I drew blood from frozen, metaphorically speaking. I made an alt. Then I took her groomercord profile pic, did an AI image search, found a pic that looked close enough, and ""doxxed"" her. Immediately the sharks ripped her apart. However, the people with a moral compass that pointed north more than twice a day, the very people I wanted to make a point to, ripped into me for what I did.

After I spammed the site with both pictures and with my message of why I did it, my alt was eventually shadowbanned and nuked.

The next morning when I got onto rdrama, I found that my accounts, including my main, had been banned. The storied existence of @Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher, had come to an end.

SECTION 6: The return.

And so Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher was gone...

for the next 36 hours.

I was not ready to leave the site. So, I sat down, made an alt (@Krayon (sister toucher)Eater) and started my new existence on rdrama by making a minor effortpost on Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher, myself, from the 3rd person, detailing my spergout and resulting ban without revealing that I was Krayon (sister toucher).

Essentially, it was secret attention whoring. Kind of oxymoronic to put it that way but that's basically what it was.

After a while of mostly lurking, I began hinting that about my TRUE fake internet identity, Krayon (sister toucher). After I was discovered I admitted for the sake of my reunion with fellow dramatards who had known me.

I was promptly shadowbanned from the site, until I whined to @Aevann and showed him that I had apologized to @FrozenChosen, (bless her and her grace), for my obvious mental disability.

After being let back I didn't really do much, and I began to realize that since I had realized how toxic and abusive the site was at times, it would never be the same for me.

I did get back into moralstragging briefly, when I started to defend pitbulls in pointless internet arguments with a dog killer on this site. Who was, and is, a horrible person.

On this account I also gave carp a picture of my balls so I could power trip and ban people.

I got fricking repulsed by how the dog killer,

@gigvaccinator seemed to enjoy animal suffering so I sperged out at him, called him a monster a few times, and banned him with awards a few more.

I also made posts showing off my sweet pibble mix dog.

And then returned, the sperg within.

SECTION 7: The End of Krayon (sister toucher)

When the rdrama country club started and the prereqs were raised, I got pissed. I didn't have enough coin to join once the requirements changed, or so I thought.

However, all the new requirement was, was an account age limit.

I discovered this by sending my dramacoin to my old account, now called @Krayon (sister toucher)Philospher1.

Except their was a problem, I couldn't send them back from a banned account. So I got angry, so angry that when I found a security issue in the sites source code later that day I threatened to not report it and to exploit it unless I was compensated

This resulted in a total purge of my accounts. While only 2 accounts were "banned", the others were shadowbanned and I think I'm IP banned now as well.

I honestly just don't have enough fun with this site anymore to start over. And honestly the culture of this site is to toxic to be good for anyone. So that's it. My time here is over.

SECTION 8: FINAL WORDS:

So I wanted to end it with this. Because, like I said, I'm plagued by existential fears. One of those fears is the fear that every though I have that wasn't expressed will die with me, and that without my thoughts being known, people will never have truly known me.

So here they are: my thoughts, laid bare for rdrama.

And finally, I wanted to say goodbye to those of you who are truly decent people.

To @FrozenChosen, for giving me a forgiveness that helped me make peace with shit in real life, to @MasterLawlz for your hilarious shitpost, to @Wizdumb337 for caring enough to ask about my vacation, and to @Aevann for making this whole horrific thing possible.

See you all when cloudflare boots us. Bye.