I desperately want to be emperor Hadrian's boy-toy but besides the several thousand year time gap, I've unfortunately hit the ancient greek twinkwall (20)
I haven't gotten a single email back from grad school so lets home i can muster up enough will to get a summer job and then apply next fall I have also barely written my paper due in a few months my whole life revolves around school and will continue to do so for 2-6 more years all the while I continue to be alone.
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Being serious, just go to med school or nursing school if you're lazy. It's 5000% higher reward to effort and will always be in demand, especially nursing since it is one of the few jobs where men receive affirmative action.
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A few of keystone lessons would be:
1. Be honest with yourself. Lying to yourself distorts your perception of reality and makes it difficult to act in a righteous manner.
2. It's fundamentally important to the spirit of an individual that they believe they are a good and righteous person, and to not demonize or villainize themselves. Not to mean that we don't struggle with sin, we do, and it's important to understand when we're grappling with darkness, but that we believe we have an innate capacity to overcome and progress. This can be framed simply in the mind with the mantra "I am a good person" when we lose focus and supplemented with an additional mantra "I'm having a hard time" when we struggle or fail to meet our expectations.
3. Take your body and the material world seriously. There's significance to the the health of our bodies and how that health impacts our perception of the world. There's a measurable physiological component to our experience tied into our nervous systems and our ability to nurture them. Stand and sit up straight, drink water, eat nutritious food, exercise, sleep when your body tells you to. On a personal note, I grew up in a soda household. My family bought soda by the case at the market and I associated thirst in general with the need for a Dr. Pepper. I would drink at least 6 a day. You may be the kind of person who thinks your life is miserable because of some indescribable miasma hanging over you, but it could also just be that you're sugar sick 80% of the time.
4. To lead a serious life requires dedication, focus, and a commitment to challenging old, comfortable habits. This is where the discomfort comes in. You're gonna be tearing down a lot of mental systems that serve to assuage the ego at the expense of divining what is real. The pain can be intense, exhausting, and all-consuming.
I'm 21 and have never been on a date, kissed a girl, etc.
To varying degrees have all the attributes women say they want (height, intelligence, career path, humor, jawline, athletic build, hobbies that aren't video games, peepee size [nobody knows this]) I'm just so socially r-slurred it doesn't matter. I'm also very religious and trying to find a religious woman at uni is hard.
I kind of singlehandedly disprove incels' appearance blackpill. Although, they might just say I'm not Chad enough. I have like "hunter eyes" or whatever and a decent chin, but my face isn't particularly attractive overall.
Dramatard humor doesn't tend to fit well with religious women. They're happy to be friends, but that's it.
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Oof, coming from a properly religious culture almost all men back home are like you. Difference is that they live in a healthy culture so it'll be easy for them to find a virginal wife, they literally just have to ask their parents!
Modern western society has put you in this situation, while there are personal things you can probably do to improve (everyone has something they can do), it is your own society that doesn't give a shit about the likes of you that is responsible for 70+% of the "r^2" of what is happening to you.
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Take an adderall and go to a party. Do it before you leave uni bc it wont get easier to find a party afterward.
Dont get drunk if you go. The adderall will keep you in the zone and confident enough to chat up anyone.
I was in a similar place as you and wish I found this out when i was still in uni. I always struggled with keeping up conversations and when there was an awkward pause, id mentally panic and at a loss for words.
Be safe. Be smart. Have fun.
Above all else, dont wait. It doesnt get easier after uni
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Social skills are a skill and are learnable. The big takeaway for the social inept that society won't tell you is that you have to be okay with causing other people a bit of suffering during conversation. I know you're already fine doing that bc you're on a trolling website. You just have to do it a bit irl too. The first 100 hours will be you spilling sphagetti out of your pockets. It will be painful for everyone involved. But you will gradually get a knack for it and you'll eventually get your peepee wet is some horrifyingly awkward encounter and everything will gradually turn out alright.
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same exact thing for me but I've never even asked a girl out so I really don't care either way, sharing my personal space with someone is such an uncomfortable disgusting thing for me I'm not sure I even want to try
I have 2 months to get my shit together or my life that has been (somewhat secretly) barely hanging on for the past 6 years is going to fully implode and it's stressing me the frick out
I've been moving up the ranks of reddit moderator cliques for 2 years and lord over at least 30 subreddits, 6 of which are 100K+ subs, and I've been sending applications to default subs since June last year.
When Reddit stock goes public I'm going to anonymously leak all the offsite mod comms (yes, bard admitted to having CP "to trace cybercriminals") and make $$$ off of shorting it.
Sometimes I act in ways that remind me of my exes, and it makes me question how much they've actually influenced me. Would I still be who I am today even if I had never met any of them?
My confession is I choose to believe the fiction that all ghost threads are started by @carpathianflorist and that this is the only way she posts to ourdrama now
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Thank you. I was going to reply like a peepee, but you were polite and this is helpful misinfo.
HOWEVER dude I don't actually care about pinging the fish that fled. Naming the flower monger just has a better ROI than posting on every Kazakhstan thread while the non-amphetimated burgers are asleep. I have goombling losses to recoup.
I hate myself for every word in the 2nd paragraph above, but the alternative is
Edit: The point is the @ name text is like one of those things that like, you know
Regardless, I'm not going to finish either of the above sentences because no part of this post was important
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I desperately want to be emperor Hadrian's boy-toy but besides the several thousand year time gap, I've unfortunately hit the ancient greek twinkwall (20)
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I haven't gotten a single email back from grad school so lets home i can muster up enough will to get a summer job and then apply next fall
I have also barely written my paper due in a few months my whole life revolves around school and will continue to do so for 2-6 more years all the while I continue to be alone.
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Try finding professors you like and writing to them directly, then applying.
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grad school is r-slurred, do something useful. Trust me I have a phd
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Iβll just be graduating with a useless bio degree and Iβm only good at school and doing what people tell me
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Being serious, just go to med school or nursing school if you're lazy. It's 5000% higher reward to effort and will always be in demand, especially nursing since it is one of the few jobs where men receive affirmative action.
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Ten years ago, prior to an intense spiritual experience, I was a depressed, atheistic, nihilistic, reddit softboy prototype.
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Meditation induced dark night of the soul.
I shed my sense of self and purpose without understanding what I was doing. It was profoundly powerful and painful.
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A few of keystone lessons would be:
1. Be honest with yourself. Lying to yourself distorts your perception of reality and makes it difficult to act in a righteous manner.
2. It's fundamentally important to the spirit of an individual that they believe they are a good and righteous person, and to not demonize or villainize themselves. Not to mean that we don't struggle with sin, we do, and it's important to understand when we're grappling with darkness, but that we believe we have an innate capacity to overcome and progress. This can be framed simply in the mind with the mantra "I am a good person" when we lose focus and supplemented with an additional mantra "I'm having a hard time" when we struggle or fail to meet our expectations.
3. Take your body and the material world seriously. There's significance to the the health of our bodies and how that health impacts our perception of the world. There's a measurable physiological component to our experience tied into our nervous systems and our ability to nurture them. Stand and sit up straight, drink water, eat nutritious food, exercise, sleep when your body tells you to. On a personal note, I grew up in a soda household. My family bought soda by the case at the market and I associated thirst in general with the need for a Dr. Pepper. I would drink at least 6 a day. You may be the kind of person who thinks your life is miserable because of some indescribable miasma hanging over you, but it could also just be that you're sugar sick 80% of the time.
4. To lead a serious life requires dedication, focus, and a commitment to challenging old, comfortable habits. This is where the discomfort comes in. You're gonna be tearing down a lot of mental systems that serve to assuage the ego at the expense of divining what is real. The pain can be intense, exhausting, and all-consuming.
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Any examples of mental systems and habits to dismantle in step #4?
Doesn't have to be personal ones, just some that may be common?
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Deflection of responsibility and avoidant behavior.
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Your pulitzer's in the mail
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Deprivation tank. Or going to Peru to take Ayahuasca.
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Scary amount of virgins and incels itt
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I'm 21 and have never been on a date, kissed a girl, etc.
To varying degrees have all the attributes women say they want (height, intelligence, career path, humor, jawline, athletic build, hobbies that aren't video games, peepee size [nobody knows this]) I'm just so socially r-slurred it doesn't matter. I'm also very religious and trying to find a religious woman at uni is hard.
I kind of singlehandedly disprove incels' appearance blackpill. Although, they might just say I'm not Chad enough. I have like "hunter eyes" or whatever and a decent chin, but my face isn't particularly attractive overall.
Dramatard humor doesn't tend to fit well with religious women. They're happy to be friends, but that's it.
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This is no longer true btw
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Oof, coming from a properly religious culture almost all men back home are like you. Difference is that they live in a healthy culture so it'll be easy for them to find a virginal wife, they literally just have to ask their parents!
Modern western society has put you in this situation, while there are personal things you can probably do to improve (everyone has something they can do), it is your own society that doesn't give a shit about the likes of you that is responsible for 70+% of the "r^2" of what is happening to you.
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Take an adderall and go to a party. Do it before you leave uni bc it wont get easier to find a party afterward.
Dont get drunk if you go. The adderall will keep you in the zone and confident enough to chat up anyone.
I was in a similar place as you and wish I found this out when i was still in uni. I always struggled with keeping up conversations and when there was an awkward pause, id mentally panic and at a loss for words.
Be safe. Be smart. Have fun.
Above all else, dont wait. It doesnt get easier after uni
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I'm not looking to lose my virginity.
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You don't need to. This is just to get your foot in the door to build a relationship
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Relatable, I go to all of my campus ministry's events but never make any friends as I'm a freak by religious standards.
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Just find a group that goes to a based church. Only place on campus where I can assume someone is right-wing.
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Social skills are a skill and are learnable. The big takeaway for the social inept that society won't tell you is that you have to be okay with causing other people a bit of suffering during conversation. I know you're already fine doing that bc you're on a trolling website. You just have to do it a bit irl too. The first 100 hours will be you spilling sphagetti out of your pockets. It will be painful for everyone involved. But you will gradually get a knack for it and you'll eventually get your peepee wet is some horrifyingly awkward encounter and everything will gradually turn out alright.
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Don't be fat, dress ok, open a tinder and set that max age to 45.
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Lose your virginity first, learn to walk before you try to run.
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No I'm not asexual I still want to have s*x I just think I have some weird god complex and a serious disgust for people
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I have 2 months to get my shit together or my life that has been (somewhat secretly) barely hanging on for the past 6 years is going to fully implode and it's stressing me the frick out
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I've been moving up the ranks of reddit moderator cliques for 2 years and lord over at least 30 subreddits, 6 of which are 100K+ subs, and I've been sending applications to default subs since June last year.
When Reddit stock goes public I'm going to anonymously leak all the offsite mod comms (yes, bard admitted to having CP "to trace cybercriminals") and make $$$ off of shorting it.
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Mashallah, may we all endeavour to be like you.
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I'll make sure to fedpost in mod chat a bit more then
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Prob won't work, but I applaud the effort
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Sometimes I act in ways that remind me of my exes, and it makes me question how much they've actually influenced me. Would I still be who I am today even if I had never met any of them?
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I worked as a west German spy as a child and invented an essential part of every cell phone sometime in the early 2000s
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I got a chastity cage and my peepee is literally too small for them, I can just pull my peepee out of it any time I want.
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Post a pic to the Femboy hole and i'll send you 2k dc.
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I have an offer to go to Harvard for my PhD but instead of accepting it I'm just not responding because I'm afraid of having responsibilities
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Lmao Harvard is for r-slurs who do crap social science.
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Wtf
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hot af
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Wtf did he mean by this
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My confession is I choose to believe the fiction that all ghost threads are started by
@carpathianflorist and that this is the only way she posts to ourdrama now
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Pings no longer actually ping when used for jannies. If you want to ping carp, literally just type carp, like this:
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This message will now ping carp.
@carpathianflorist does not ping carp.
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Thank you. I was going to reply like a peepee, but you were polite and this is helpful misinfo.
HOWEVER dude I don't actually care about pinging the fish that fled. Naming the flower monger just has a better ROI than posting
on every Kazakhstan thread while the non-amphetimated burgers are asleep. I have goombling losses to recoup.
I hate myself for every word in the 2nd paragraph above, but the alternative is
Edit: The point is the @ name text is like one of those things that like, you know
Regardless, I'm not going to finish either of the above sentences because no part of this post was important
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