Sheila is bouncing back thanks to the medications and special care we're giving her. She's struggling to eat still but at least she's numbed to the pain for now.

Meanwhile, I just tested positive for covid, and my manager said to stay away from work until 48 hours post-symptom display, optimally with a negative test result to confirm I'm not a walking germ haha

It is good that I'll be with Sheila and the kittens for a few days. Thank God for small blessings

!animalposters !cats

Flex your creative muscles.

They are keen to be BLEACHED.

I mean my competition there is literally this:

I'm quite lean and fit, so it might be worth a little vacation.

Resident seething jeet nationalist @Sasanka_of_Gauda what do you reckon

As the above states: the sweet girl has been home for a little bit now. She was initially very spooked and upset when touched. She's sleeping next to me and her kittens have been separated from her, as the vet directed me to do to prevent them from ingesting her antibiotics and pain pills for the next week.

She has a less serious infection than anticipated, but from the look of her right now, I'm very worried and will be up late and very early to be with the cats.

Sheila cannot start her meds until she eats a substantial amount of food, but she just wants to eep. This is spooky stuff on Friday the 13th!

!animalposters !cats !catholics

RANT INCOMING

I've been all around looking for accommodation this weekend, went to this place today and the chick renting it was absolutely TINY and all I could think about was having s*x with her and and then we got to her apartment and there was some dude and I was like "frick" in my head but then turns out he was the roommate moving out so I was like "okay maybe there is a chance" but then she mentioned a partner overseas and I was like "frick" again

But then later, thinking rationally she was kind of annoying and probably wouldn't even like me in that way, and actually I'm pretty r-slurred if I let wanting to bang my roommate influence my decision of where to rent when there are so many more important factors.

Basically, being straight and attracted to real women is a massive pain in the butt. I try to be devout and only have eyes for my 2D waifu but the sad truth is that sometimes as a straight male with the biological drive to breed you're going to encounter such temptations that completely mess with your brain and can cause you to make some really bad decisions, especially when she's got LONG DIRTY BLONDE HAIR AND SPARKLING GREEN EYES AND THE TINIEST MOST FRICKABLE BODY YOU CAN IMAGIN- HNGHHH

I fricking hate myself.

Wouldn't life be so much easier if you could just turn that desire off.

rant over

TLDR: being a straight male attracted to real women is very annoying because you have to fight your biological desires all the time to avoid doing dumb shit

Please pray for us and our tiny baby momma girl! I hate this

I need help.

!coomers

post the color i am to u, then people will reply to all the top level comments with what color you are to them

!homeowners would you rather stay in your slightly too small unglamorous house which you'll pay off completely within 7 years, or move to a much bigger more glamorous dream home, with a way bigger but still affordable mortgage for another 20 years?

I just don't know what people do in these situations.

I want the house but I don't want the added risk a bigger mortgage comes with. I.e. would need to build up bigger emergency fund despite having bigger outgoings.

I don't like my current house but I do like the idea of having no mortgage outgoings in 7 years.

What would you do or what have you done when faced with this decision?

I found this on my own completely without any help

What's the craziest dream you've ever had recently? Any sleep paralysis or lucid dreams?

It's time to stop living in regret.You made some bad choices studying English, but the past is in the past. It's time to make the most of what you have. Consider teaching overseas. It would mean quitting drugs but it's worth the sacrifice to build a life for yourself.

You also need to need to get over Sarah H. She loves you as a friend, and you need to accept and appreciate it. Friendship is rare and you should value such a close friendship instead of wanting to stick your peepee everywhere. You also need to calm down on the drugs and stop taking so many benzos, it's bad for your health even though it feels good. Kendrick Lamar isn't bad as I thought he was, he has some good songs. Hard is Life is an amazing person and she deserves respect and love because she has a hard life and she deserves support.

I need to certmax and find my way into the IT field.

I was super sick today (🌸>.<). Had a stomachache and didn't leave bed at all (🌸•︿•)💧. I even called in sick to work (🌸•︵•) which is something I haven't done in years. Somehow that made me super depressed and sad (🌸｡>﹏<｡), and I don't mean the internet "haha I'm so depressed xD" depressed (🌸-_-), but the "I've been seeing a psychiatrist weekly for the past 4 months" depressed (🌸´•︵•)💭.

I am doing okay in some areas of my life, but somehow all of this feels null and stupid and devoid of purpose (🌸｡•́︿•̀｡)💧, and that makes me want to cry (🌸TT_TT). Why is life even worth living? (🌸•︵•)💭 There's nothing that makes me truly happy (🌸•︿•), and the older I get, the more frustrated and sad I get that everyone else seems to find life worth it (🌸•-•)💔. Am I broken? (🌸｡T_T｡)

Anyway, I needed to vent to someone about this, and I guess I chose this place because I'm stupid (🌸｡>﹏<｡)💦. That's all. Have a great night (🌸´•︵•`)✨.

I love patsy. Lee(Patsy's pronoun) is great. I want to sleep with Harvey(Patsy's pronoun). Lee(Patsy's pronoun) kicked me out of Harvey(Patsy's pronoun) chat group twice. Patsy if you are seeing this, I find you very attractive. I respect you and your pronouns. I know you are not perfect. You are severely neurodivergent, probably 5'4, stink like onions, fat and also black. But I still love you pat. And always will. OXXO Lil B love patsy regardless. Patsy, dm me if you want to be loved by a Successful black man. #BitchMob #Based #TrueLove #TaskForce #LGBTQ #Gay #BLM #MeToo #UnconditionalLove - Lil B

@Patsy - Lil B

I'll be there with the 928. Hopefully will get some points for having he original car phone, but not in it for the awards.

Anyways, rDrama meetup this weekend on the 14th at Hart Plaza in Detroit. I've got an extra ticket if you want to come with.

Fixed the battery drain issue so no more jumping it from the lawn mower.

I'm so desperate for human interaction lol. My crazy/hot lesbian ex just reached out to me and I might even respond.

Not a huge update and no one cares BUT I saw my hot gay psychiatrist yesterday. Still haven't been able to turn him. Huge FroCho L.

I have been off all meds now for a couple months. I did it behind my doctor's back because I hated the way the meds made me feel (emotionally numb, dissociated, borderline high all day). Even Ketamine started becoming unpleasant. I decided I would try to get better on my own.

I didn't see him for a few months as I found therapy was really emotionally difficult and I was also out of town. I went back yesterday finally and told him about going off the meds.

My psych said I am the best he has ever seen me (!!) and I don't need to go back on them. I am continuing therapy and most importantly continuing the lifestyle changes which helped me get over this period.

I was in a really dark place this time last year & I sort of feel robbed of the last 12 months of my life. I still don't feel my current life is worth living but I know I will be able to make one with time. If you are prone to depression, I have some advice. Mainly it's about controlling your environment and thoughts.

1. For me, the main thing is staying sober. My mood is even keeled as long as I don't drink. If you use any substance as a crutch, stop and consider if it's actually making the situation worse. I was sober almost the entire summer but when I tried "moderately" drinking again, I quickly realized how much the booze hurt my mental health. I'm back to sobriety and might join AA.

2. BEING CAREFUL ABOUT WHAT MEDIA I CONSUME. By media I mean which subreddits, twitter, music, TV shows, etc. Unsubscribe from all depression meme pages or negative subreddits. Only consume positive things. You might use dark or angry music to console you, but it's just keeping you in that mindset. Rap, pop and dance music will put you in a better headspace. Rdrama is one place I really need to avoid but I'm here for the debate tonight, then I'll be gone into the ether again. I also started getting really into contemporary art, it's a healthy and challenging hobby plus there are several art groups in Chicago so a nice community as well.

3. I paid a witch in Croatia for an energy cleansing.

4. Prayer. I asked a minister at my church to pray for me and started reading the Bible more and talking to God again. When things were really bleak I felt as though God had forgotten about me but He's always there.

5. Watching YouTube videos on near death experiences. It's oddly life affirming. They are all a little different but even across cultures they have common elements (moving rapidly through space, a being of light). If you look at life as a place for you to learn, it makes the hard times easier.

6. Watching my thoughts, not giving in to the victim mentality that you get with depression ("it's never going to get better"—>"It's gotten better in the past and I can get back there"). This is probably the hardest thing to do but makes the biggest difference. When you're depressed, those thoughts are very comforting but you're just prolonging your pain. Even if you don't believe it right away, think or say the opposite of whatever the thought you have. You need to practice new neural pathways.

7. Golden retriever cuddles (Chewy only tolerates me)

8. Support where you can get it. For me, it's mainly been my sister as you guys know. You can reach out to old friends, not to trauma dump but just catch up. You'll feel better connecting with other people. Support doesn't have to mean talking about the bad stuff. There are also religious groups, AA or group therapy, hobby groups, professional support like therapy, my witch in Croatia etc etc. If you join any online groups, be careful not to join anything geared for depression because those turn into very sad echo chambers. You don't need fake positivity, but you do need to get into more positive environments.

9. Mediterranean diet. It's the most delicious diet anyway. Hummus, fatty fish, veggies. The omega 3s are shown to help depression symptoms.

10. Exercise. I'm literally just going on walks at the moment but I'll start running again this week. Getting out of the house and in nature is VERY helpful.

11. Crazy hot Epsom salt baths. This is the only way I'm able to stay sober I stg because the hot baths relax me more than alcohol does. Helps MAJORLY with anxiety which is the main reason I drank. Getting massages has been proven to help depressed people as well because human touch releases the ✨ good chemicals ✨

12. DO NOT ROMANTICIZE YOUR DEPRESSION. I've also noticed this with alcoholics romanticizing their decline. Don't let it become your identity or you won't overcome it.

13. I went blonde again. It was just a symbolic change for trying to start fresh. Some people get tattoos or change their clothing style. You could redecorate your house. Making any visual changes help you move into a different mindset and get excited about the next chapter in your life.

Basically, once you are stable, throw absolutely everything you can at the depression. You may as well try (REALLY try) because if it doesn't work you can always keep yourself safe.

Finally, there are a few books on depression I would recommend: the Upward Spiral (the absolute best one imo), Lost Connections & the Depression Cure

Drinking it after forever and it's literally like shittier tasting cold drinks. 5 percent v/v it was happy hour and really cheap tho so I'm not complaining too much.