Reeeee

Mac Miller award

Not quite like I was last. I'm doing the shitty drugs that are stereotyped as being used by the socially r-slurred tech bro micro-optimisation life hack class, the ones who take (((nootropics))) not drugs. I'm slamming back memantine, phenibut, and uncomfortable amounts of caffeine. Since I've been a little zooted and deinhibited I also tried getting some modafinil analogs on order, I probably got scammed but maybe it'll come in.

My nervous system is on edge but my mind is too lost in the sauce to feel the same. I just feel off, alert but I feel nothing. Don't bother with these bullshit drugs, do the real things. The real things will ruin your life but you'll at least feel like you're climbing up while you're falling down. You'll experience nirvana and heck during the same day. It's exciting. I felt confused, but alive. I saved the world by peeling off my toenails.

Right now I'm just acutely aware I'm drugging myself with none of the fun parts that come along with that. Just mildly reduced inhibitions encouraging me to post this L. Not reduced enough to go back to onions and induce bipolarism again. It almost was, maybe if the last DNM I used was still there. I don't feel like sifting through markets and finding old vendors, or finding trustworthy new ones if the old vendors I used are gone. I'm pretty sure all the good PCP analogs are gone anyway, don't tell me if they aren't I'd rather believe they're gone and unobtainable. I'll keep my job on these shitty drugs, I probably won't keep my job if I go back to the good shit.

I'll get off this cocktail in a few days, probably. Not that good. Namaste.

I'm at work, water access is plentiful. Alone for at least 8 hours only answering phones occasionally. BUT I can't be on my phone or anything.

What we thinking?

I saw Garfielf wayyyyy back in 2017 (I remember because it was the same night I got really really crossfaded for the first time) but never looked into the creator. I saw Grinch's Ultimatum a few years ago and thought it was really well done, but never made the connection that it was by the same person. Now I have seen this, and this belongs in this hole.

When I say legalized I mean that there would be an entire legal framework that facilitates and regulates the production and sale of what are normally called "hard" drugs like meth, heroin, cocaine, ect. Feel free to discuss the pros and cons of doing so.

I took half a pill and I didn't get high just kinda violently nauseous and sick. I can't eat or drink anything without throwing it up. Wtf these things suck

Boring alcoholic. Dont do wild shit. Never wanted to live sober tho or live this long. Trying to suffer existence until the pre-dementia stage

Worst person I ever met:

Old nice granny! She told her story before leaving. She shoved her husband at the time off the back porch stairs and turned him into a quadriplegic. Lied about it. Took "care" of him. Wheeled him around while both homeless and left him in a shed to die lol

"My baby dad killed my baby but it was an accident so we shouldn't be here" I mean he did just roll over on it so whatever...

Crazy dude in intake room. Cracked out with a knife. Waving it around. He was chill tho if u didn't mention the knife or taking it away from him. Other people SO offended when a worker was like that's crack... and all the crackheads offended and swearing it is meth not crack.

Funniest dude. Lied about army shit. Had fake teeth. Would take his teeth out and flick his tongue and "sexy dance" in the mirror. Told me: "I respect women! I practice jew jitsu it's all about respect!" After me clowning on him for saying he wants to frick me and some heroin addicted fat chick at the same time. (LOTS of fat heroin addicted white chicks that are stupid as shit)

Bragging about being whores. One girl swore she made hundreds just smoking crack naked in front of a wheelchair dude. I dont believe her... Def trying to clean up the degrading things she did.

Dumb foids gettin mad cuz I'd rather be homeless than sell my butthole and dignity for $30. "They" felt bad for me. XD

Pleading to not let heroin addicts die...

Had "narcan training" and this ex heroin b-word told me how she OD'd like 8 times in one month and the paramedics stopped coming to revive them and how it was super important we save everyone

they got on buprenorhpine within 3 months of starting the pain clinic (no history of pain meds being prescribed before, but history of drug abuse) does this seem legit??? my understanding is that because lyrica is a gabaergic that it has depressive synergy with the bupe, and said person has prior opiate addiction history *sips tea*